Christmas Program

The last few weeks we have been working and so have the kids, hard on the christmas program. well it was last night. It was so good. I am really proud of the kids. If there was anything negative to say about it it was this...i was looking at pictures of it and i realized how BIG i looked :0 :( o well...i guess it gives me more motive to lose the weight after christmas. Please pray that i stick with it and i see results because i get discouraged really easy. thanks!

Anyways. The kids were so adorable. The babies did a "play" with a book that Karen Weido loaned us. It was called "A Christmas Prayer." Squish's play was God's Crayon Box. and Paul and Kay's play was called "Jesus' Scouts." "a Christmas Prayer was about a little girl who is thanking God for Jesus. And even though the christmas tree and lights are pretty and even tho our toys are fun we wouldn't have christmas without Jesus. Jr was answering my questions LOL he was so cute. My 2 gorgeous daughters were adorable also. NeNe and ZZ. Oh how i love those babies. All 3 of them. All the babies were really cute. Jr, NeNe, ZZ, Ting, Chloe, Abagail, Emily, Roman, Carley, and Logan. You babies played your parts really well looking absolutely adorable. Then at the end of our story I walked to Emily who was our little Christmas girl for our play and whispered for her to say "thank you God" and she kept whispering it back. It was cute. The age range for this play was 0-3 1/2. I was/am a very proud momma and teacher. Thank you to the parents and grandparents who allow me to have a special part in their kids' lives. And thank you Michaela, Amber, Jessica, Jara, and Amanda for helping me out!

Squish's play was "God's Crayon Box" and it was also a success. The kids were dressed in certain colors: blue, red, orange, green, and yellow. And each color had a meaning and it was to do with Jesus. Blue was for baby Jesus (being a boy), yellow is for the hay that Jesus lay in. Green is for the trees (i think), and red for His blood, and orange is for the light of Jesus. It wasn't in that order exactly but it all had to do with Jesus. And though we as individuals may not get along and we are unique when we come together we are supposed to make the picture complete. We come together and share about Jesus. Just like you use different colors to color a picture and make it beautiful. It was something like that LOL. The kids and Squish did a wonderful job. Dolton, Paige, Alyssa, Whitney, Tyler, and Delilah were the kids in the play and they did such a wonerful job!

Paul and Kay's Play was "Jesus' Scouts" and it went really well also. A lot of work went into it and they did a wonderful job. Paul and Kay Smith were the Scout Leaders and they led the kids into the church as they were going on a hike to get their campfire to have their scout meeting. And their meeting was about Christmas. There was a good thing about Christmas which Kay introduced and a bad thing about Christmas which Paul introduced. The kids would say a good thing about christmas such as opening christmas presents. and the kids would say a bad thing about christmas such as cleaning up after opening the christmas presents. One of the highlights which Mrs. Deanna (our pastor's wife) didn't know about was her grandkids were in the play also (that she knew) but A good thing about christmas was making christmas dinner and jag said that a bad thing about christmas was mo mo is invited (now they love when their mo mo is invited but for the play it was if she was an old granny) and he pinched dolton's face and said in a cute old tone "you're sooo cute". Oh he did a wonderful job on that part. Everyone busted out laughing LOL. Anyways, it came to the end of the play and Haley said that a good thing about christmas was Jesus was born and Gabi ended it with "nobody can say anything bad about that". The point was with every good thing that was mentioned a bad thing was counteracted with it. But nobody can say anything bad about Jesus being born. And then all the kids got up and sang we wish you a merry christmas and Bro. J.D. got up ended the program. Gabi, Wilson, Wesley, Jag, Dolton, Haley, Aubrey, Jilli, Delilah, and Whitney were the scouts.

Overall the plays were a success. and i do believe the kids made us all proud and their parents and grandparents as well!

Count Your Blessings

Here lately I have been really down, broke, and hurting. Stressed out...and so much more. My hubby and I knew that these last few months were going to be really hard. Well we have been ok so far even being really broke and me and the hubby have given up a lot of stuff until we get income taxes and our money will be so much better. We moved into our house 5 months earlier than what we had planned...and we werent completely prepared nor did we have the chance to prepare. (Bare with me this is not all about being negative this is just the background.) Only one more month...we have been dealing with it ok and then now its Christmas time...it hit us hard. We have shed many tears in these last 2 weeks. we want the best for our kids. We love them so very much and we are willing to sacrifice for them. well my hubby has been working many hours and it SEEMS like we have had nothing to show for it. We dont go out to eat, we get our bare necessities...but then last night i couldnt sleep and while i was thinking and crying over all of this i realized this...we do have something to show for it really...we have all of our bills paid, we are together, and our babies are taken care of. We have food in our house and clothes to wear, and a house to live in. we even have our tv and cable so we have our entertainment as well. Oh it may be that we dont get our "wants" but we have our "needs" and that is what is important. I guess with Christmas coming so soon that we were stressing about buying christmas for our babies. and for each other. well my uncle and aunt helped us out so much with the kids' christmas. They put money on a walmart card (and they have been helping us the last few months since september to get us through to income taxes so that we could get our necessities and it has helped out so much) But this month was really special to me. they put extra money on there for black friday to get the kids' christmas and said the gifts were from us. and that in december they would put money on the walmart card for gifts from them. That made me ball. I realized that I am really blessed. It doesnt matter how much we fight, ignore each other, get along i know that they will be there for me. i know that i have a family who cares and loves me and makes sure that I am taken care of. I also have God who gave me such a good family. Now my kids' christmas is taken care of. God also gave hubby extra hours to get each other some christmas and me his birthday.

Not only have we been blessed by my aunt and uncle but also my in-laws. they have been so good to us also. They let us go shopping in their christmas stash for me and my hubby. I shopped for him and he shopped for me. And we were gonna pay for everything. well they typed us out a bill and this is what is aid: Bill for christmas gifts: $0. and it went on to say that is what parents do they help out their kids without expecting anything in return. there was at least $75 worth of stuff. Of course that made me cry too. I have been really emotional lately AND NO I AINT PREGO LOL. So this morning (4 am) i started thinking "jenny, why are you being so down and negative so much? why dont you start counting your blessings rather than counting your issues?" so here it goes just to name a few.

1. I have a wonderful merciful Savior who loves me and gave His life for me and is ALWAYS there for me even when I ditch Him and aint so good to Him.
2. I have a fantastic hubby who goes to work and works so many hours just to provide for his family because he loves us so much.
3. I have 3 beautiful wild and crazy yet so cute and adorable babies. They are my life and I love them so very much.
4. I have a fantastic family.
5. I married into a great family as well.
6. I have a good church and I love being the nursery director and having a part in my church babies lives.
7. I was able to have all of my secret sister gifts bought before i moved into my house except for 1 (and I am one of those people who pick our certain gifts for my person for which month and when I give it to that person and i was missing 1 gift back in october and i had myself a melt down because i didnt even have the money to get that but squish and amanda helped me out so thank yall)
8. My bills are paid and the ones that aint yet we have the money to pay them.
9. We have a vehicle to drive and I am now comfortable enough to drive it
10. We have a house to sleep in, fight in, play in, smile in, clean, and just be home

those were just to name a few. Yes I am very blessed.

Im hoping that I will be able to afford to get some of these diet drops to try that some of my friends are doing. They aint very much but to me a $1 is too much lol. I have to lose weight and I also want to lose weight. For my health and also because my wedding renewal is in a year and a half. and i want to look good. I dont like the way i look right now but with God's help and support and my familys as well i will. Please pray that I can also get the scholarship for the health works program. my dr signed me up for it because she says it will help with fibromyalgia and losing the weight will help with it too. Oh and also i was told that I have a really really low vitamin d level so i have to walk in the sun more and take maximum strength vitamin d every day. Yep i think thats the update on me. My new motto is "too blessed to be stressed" and if that dont work "fake it tiil i make it"

Gratitude Challenge days 23 & 24

Day 23 is I am thankful for naps. Im not really sure what resting is anymore lol. but here lately i have been so tired and drained. There are some days Im not sure i can make it through without a pick me up nap. And my hubby is just so wornderful. He always tries to make it possible for me to get one. He has and is so good to me. I love you jonathan raymond love sr! thank you for being so sweet and kind and good to me. So for day 23 i am thankful for naps.

Day 24 is I am thankful for hubby's off days. My hubby works hard and there are times when we see him very little. then he has class and all kinds of things. I get to where I miss him alot. And i look forward to his next off day when me and the kiddos get to spend some much needed time with him. I just love it and him and my beautiful babies. So for day 24 is I am thankful for my hubby's off days.

Gratitude Challenge Days 21 & 22

Day 21 is i am thankful for my aunt and uncle. They have been helping me and my hubby the last few months to help us get through to income taxes. Without their help we really wouldve been sunk. They have been sending us some money to ease our struggles and it has helped tremedously. We have been broke...really broke...and without their help i dont know what we would have done. Thank you for all of your help Barry & Deana i really really appreciate it. And we love you so much. So for Day 21 I am thankful for my aunt and uncle.

Day 22 is I am thankful for my church. Last night the battery in our van completely died. Oh i felt like just balling right then and there. We were able to make it the church and back sunday morning but we werent able to go sunday night because the battery died. We have no money but my hubby asked the church if we could borrow the money from the church until we get income taxes. thats $100 that we didnt have right now and it was such a huge blessing that we could borrow the money until after the holidays. we have no money set aside anywhere. but we have a new battery in our van and we are up and running once again. so for day 22 is I am thankful for my church!

Gratitude Challenge Days 18, 19, & 20

day 18 is i am thankful for good friends. God has blessed me with some good friends. Well actually i keep telling jonathan that i really have no real friends that i just go an hang out with. Oh sure i talk to people and i do things for people but to just go and hang out i couldnt really name any. but then I realize i hang out with my hubby and my mother in law and even my sister in law an brother in law. Those are great friends. And for those who are my church friends I am grateful for you too! so for day 18 is I am thankful for good friends.

Day 19 is I am thankful for my beautiful babies. They make me laugh and cry and scream and so many mixed emotions. But they are my life and i love them so much. They are one of my main reasons for pushing myself and for living. They are beautiful! So for day 19 is I am thankful for my beautiful babies.

Day 20 is I am thankful for Dove shampoo & conditioner. I cried tears of joy this. Oh sure you read that i am thankful for dove shampoo & conditioner and think What? thats stupid but not to me. That is my one treat that i do for myself once a month. and with us having no money with the move and all i decided to give it up until we could get to where we could afford it again. Which would be income taxes. So since the end of august I havent had any for my hair and i have been using cheap shampoo and conditioner. Well i posted that i wanted some for christmas on facebook not thinking anything about it. I post lots of stuff as my status LOL well this super sweet lady that my hubby works with and a dear friend of mine and his read it and she bought me some dove shampoo and condtioner just to be sweet to me. She didnt expect anything in return. She just wanted to be a blessing to me. And boy was she. i cried tears of joy. Who wouldve thought crying over shampoo & conditioner? LOL but i did. It was so sweet of her. Thank you Di...So for day 20 i am thankful for Dove shampoo & conditioner.

Gratitude Challenge Day 17

Day 17 is I am thankful for the trials and tests that God puts me through. I am so hurt right now. But i know that I wouldn't be so bad off if I hadnt left God. I have been failing the tests that He has been giving me. And I have been too dumb to even realize it. Why is it that I gotta wait until i am at my breaking point to turn back to God. He doesnt leave me its me leaving Him. God gives me trials to make me a better person and a better christian. romans 8:28 tells me that. I got a good spanking from Him today. I needed it. I am taking my shattered heart to Him. He is my friend. And a better friend than me. He sticks by me and even though I ditch Him when i dont think that I need Him at the moment He is still standing there with his arms held wide open waiting to embrace me with His loving arms. Part of the reason of why I am so hurt is because I feel betrayed by a "friend" but maybe i needed that to happen to me because I have been betraying God and ignoring Him. Oh these trials are heartbreaking sometimes and they are hard and tough but God never does promise me that it is going to be easy. He promises to be a good friend and stick with me and by me. I need to start striving to be more like Him. a better friend. And even though i feel betrayed that dont give me the reason to dish out the same treatment or even allow the problem to linger. What if God did that to me? then who could I go to? I have heard of the saying over and over again "what goes around comes around" but why? if we are hurting as bad as we are then why would we want that for someone else? that is cruel but that is the way that it often goes. I am so thankful that God doesnt do that to me. I am making the decision once again to start running toward His open arms rather than running away. And through the hurt and the pain to embrace what God is doing for me and being a good friend that no matter what people can come to me. I know I am probably rambling in this post but thats ok too...So for day 17 I am thankful for trials and tests that God gives me. It made me see what I have been doing and not doing and also made me realize that I have been failing these tests and i keep receiving more trials and tests so why not start passing them with flying colors. They are there to make me stronger and a better person and christian now it is time for me to start becoming one!

Gratitude Challenge Days 15 & 16

Day 15 is I am thankful for memories. I can't imagine not having a camera around or things to document memories. I just absolutely love pictures. I like to have that memory that stands still. When i look at a picture i can "picture" exactly what the thing looked like and so many happy thoughts come to mind. I love watching my babies grow up and learn new things. Oh it is very hard the older they get. I want them to want and need me all the time but i also know that when they get older we are making new memories to go along with them. I love how we can snap a camera and the memory seems to last forever. So for day 15 is I am thankful for memories and being able to document them.

Day 16 is I am thankful for God's Word. What would do without it? Obviously being a miserable wreck. So many times I just keep ditching Him. Or thinking that I can do things on my own like I dont need HIM or something. What am I thinking? I guess Im really not. Here lately I have been so burdened down. Its like one thing after another. And I allow Satan to get the best of me. Why do I do that? because I dont get into the Word of God. I have no excuse really...i just need to set my mind to give God my time and read what He has to say to me. And imagine my surprise when i read what I need to hear and God has a nugget for me. a blessing. Or a pick me up...and sometimes even a spanking. Please pray for me that I will get backk into His Word like I should do. am thankful that God gave me a blueprint for life I just need to read it. You hear these jokes about how men dont like to read instructions but I am doing the same thing...I am going throught life without reading the Instructions. God laid it out plain for me and yet I refuse it...that is so stinking dumb of me. Anyways for day 16 I am thankful for God's Word. It is truth and perfect and something that I can cling to.

Gratitude Challenge Day 14

Day 14 is I am thankful that Squish and I were able to sit down, discuss, and put together the Christmas program. Oh it's not completely done yet but we got so much accomplished. We got the plays figured out and that is the important thing. Now we still have little things to do as far as getting ready for the program but we got the part the kids need to be concerned with done and their teachers. I am pretty excited. I love bouncing ideas off of Squish and we usually come up some pretty neat-o ideas and things. I am so excited about the program this year and i think that the audience of family and friends will like it too! Squish...you are an amazing woman and a Wonderful Children's Church Director and you are doing such a wonderful job with the kids and i love how you love and care for those kids and are willing to put yourself out there for them as well! So for Day 14 I am thankful that Squish and I were able to get quite a bit accomplished for the Christmas program.

Gratitude Challenge Days 12 & 13

Day 12 is I am thankful for a vehicle to drive. As y'all know I was forced to learn or rather build confidence in driving once again. But I am thankful that I am now a little more independent and that God provided me a vehicle to be comfortable driving in. And so far even though money has been super tight God has been providing the gas that gets put in there. Oh there are so many times when I wonder how we are gonna make it til the next paycheck but God always provides it. So for Day 12 I am thankful for a vehicle to drive.

Day 13 is I am thankful for Squish's friend who gave nene a pair of black shoes. Yes, money has been so super tight. I haven't even bought my kids' Christmas yet. Thankfully I already had bought my secret friend and secret sister gifts so that is good that I dont have to worry about that. But anyhow...it is starting to be winter and she didnt have any black church shoes to wear and all she had was white church shoes that are getting too small and sandals and i had told my mother in law that nene needed a pair of black church shoes but i couldnt afford to get any right now. And she said that we will just for pray for God to provide them. Well Squish's friend had contacted her about some clothes for one of amanda's daycare kids whose house burnt down and asked her if me and jonathan wanted the potty chair well when we got there we didnt know that there were some black church shoes that are exactly nenes size in there and that were to be nenes. God provided for us while he provided for another family. God is so good to us. So for Day 13 I am thankful for nenes black church shoes. They are cute and they look new and they look great and I love nene in them :)

Gratitude Challenge Days 10 & 11

Day 10 is I am thankful that my hubby has a job. Sometimes I get so frustrated with the way he gets treated or what he has to deal with but he deals with it because he loves his family so very much and it is our source of income. So for Day 10 I am thankful for my hubby's job. Thats seems to come far and few between these days.

Day 11 is I am thankful that I food in my house and food that My family can eat and not have to worry about getting hurt or sick on. And God providing our groceries. There are so many health issues and it seems to vary in my household. I have food for my family. It is nice to go in the refridgerator and look inside and see it stocked up same goes for the freezer and for the cabinets. So for Day 11 I am grateful for food in my house. Going grocery shopping can be stressful or it can be a form of relief and it can be both for me. Depending on the day and how i feel and whatever...today it was nice to get out and just catch a breath and just have me time but being productive at the same time. Stephen and Squish kept the babies so that I could get my grocery shopping done. I also found some milk free chocolate chip cookies and also a new cake that my baby boy can have. Of course i get so excited when i find things that he can have. I am thankful for food and food that my wonderful family can have!

Gratitude Challenge Day 9

Day is I am thankful for a green frog potty chair. I was at the store the other day and I seen this frog potty chair and i really wanted one. The kids bathroom is done in frogs and i have 2 in potty training. 1 doing really good the other one who just didnt care. Anyways, i couldnt afford one and even though i have 2 bathrooms when i am by myself it is hard taking both of them at the same time in 2 different bathrooms so they would share the potty...not so bad right? well it could be worse...but it is so much easier have 2 in the same place. Well Squish's friend offered a potty chair to us. I was like Yes i want it please. Well we went and picked it up today and low and behold it was a never been used green frog potty chair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And it has been such a success! Jr is actually wanting to use the potty today. So it was a double blessing! So for day 9 I am thankful for a green frog potty chair! And When i asked God for a potty chair i didnt specify which one i wanted but it just goes to show that God gives me the desires of my heart!

Gratitude Challenge Day 8

Day 8 is I am thankful that I am NOT pregnant. Oh dont get me wrong I love my kids so very much and I love babies. But I am so thankful that I am not pregnant right now. I just don't think that I can handle another one right now. Anyways the dr prescribed me Savella and Neurotin and they both said that it is bad to take while pregnant. So before I started on them I bought a clear blue digital pregnancy test and I took it and it said NOT PREGNANT...i was so happy for those 2 words. Now dont get me wrong I want another baby just not right now. So in the morning I will be starting on my meds. And maybe after I renew my vows then I can have another baby. Z will be about 2 years old. So for day 8 I am thankful that I am not pregnant. If I was to become pregant I would go with the flow of things but i am happy with the 3 that I have right now. God has truly blessed me so much with 3 beautiful rowdy babies and a fantastic husband!

Gratitude Challenge Day 7

wow I do believe this post will have me caught up on my Gratitude Challenge.

Day 7 is I am thankful that Jesus is all that I need. Tonight I sang in church. I sang "All That I Need"

All that I need is my faith in Jesus
All that I need is my home above
All that I need is my Father's mercy
All that I need is my Saviour's love.

When I look around at all this world offers
I begin to crave the things that I see
I must keep my eyes on Jesus my Saviour
He has promised heavenly treasures to me.

All that I need is my faith in Jesus
All that I need is my home above
All that I need is my Father's mercy
All that I need is my Saviour's love.

All the pretty things shine brightly around me
Houses and possessions glisten and gleam
Riches seem to offer peace and contentment
But it's just a lie, it's only a dream

All that I need is my faith in Jesus
All that I need is my home above
All that I need is my Father's mercy
All that I need is my Saviour's love

All that I need is my faith in Jesus
All that I need is my home above
All that I need is my Father's mercy
All that I need is my Saviour's love

All that I need is my Saviour's love

The words of this song really fits my life right now. There are so many times when i look at the people and the things around me and it's like I almost envy them or think that "wow wouldnt life be so much easier" maybe so but I realize that even if and when i get the "things" that i crave it only satisfies me for a little time. But with Jesus He always satisfies. Oh there are so many times when i stray off the path onto a side road that my world fleshly self thinks that I "need" the things that Jesus don't promise. The things of the world. It is mostly things that aren't necessarily bad. Like having a house. having a house aint bad but when it's not good enough or it may not compare to someone elses house then im not satisfied and shame on me. God provided for me and He says He will take care of me. But I am so blessed that I have His mercy and His love. And really that is all I do need. everything else will fall into place. So for day 7 I am thankful that Jesus is all that I need. When I need a friend and feel like i can't talk to anyone Jesus is there. Oh I am far from perfect and I stray off the path many many many times but Jesus is always right where i left Him because He didn't go anywhere and He is holding His arms wide open ready to wrap me in His love and mercy. So here is a question...why do i leave Him? that really is dumb...but I am so grateful and thankful for His love and mercy and grace! Thank you Jesus for being all that I need!

Gratitude Challenge 5 & 6

Day 5 is I am thankful for good dr's. So I had my blood drawn 3 times in 1 week. In my hand none the less. It was painful and left a bruise on each hand. And they were sore for a few days. but when I look at my hands i dont really think about how big of a bruise that was left but rather wow i sure am blessed to get to have blood work drawn and the tests ran for free to find out what is wrong with me. I have a dr that really cares about me. We go to Interfaith Clinic because we have so little money. But they care as if Im paying them $200 a visit rather than $0 a visit. So it is nice that God has allowed Interfaith to be here for those like me who have very little to no money and take care of their needs. Also my meds i was given was given to me for free! So for Day 5 I am thankful for good dr's.

Day 6 is I am thankful for good quality family time. I love Sundays. This post was supposed to be for Saturday night but that is ok. I love to get together every Sunday night after a usually chaotic Sunday morning and spend time with my hubby, kiddos, and my in-laws. We usually cook every other dinner and the same goes with my in-laws although i think here lately my in-laws have been taking most of the bill as we have been going crazy with health and running around like crazy and also trying once again what to cook and what not to cook. LOL If people only knew...one cant have milk or any form of milk, one cant have seeds, alot of fried foods and things that will cause his flare ups for diveriticulitis (which we are still learning about) and 1 cant have red meat. Wow...it kind of narrows things down a lot. but we adapt to the changes. As we do it together as a family. We have a lot of fun. I look back and remember when we didnt do this sunday night get together. We have been getting together for a few months now and it is great! I love it they are memories in the making! So for Day 6 I am thankful for good family time. I am glad that I have a good relationship with my in-laws. It's not one of those dreading...oh its the in-laws kind of thing. I look forward to spending time with them. :)

Gratitude Challenge Days 3 & 4

Day 3 is I am thankful for a house to live in. Oh I may complain about having to clean it or it's cold or it's hot but at least I have a roof over my head and something that i can call my own. A place that I can come home to and be with my family and come home to and relax. God has blessed me with a house to buy and not many can say that. So for day 3 I am thankful for a house to live in.

Day 4 is I am thankful for laundry. Oh i just love to do laundry NOT lol but I am thankful that I have my own washer and dryer and that I dont have to go to the laundry mat. I am thankful that i have laundry to wash. h boy wouldn't that be a sight to see :0 that scares me LOL. I am thankful that my kids and my hubby's clothing needs are met. No we may not have fancy clothes or even a lot of clothes but am thankful for the clothes that we do have. Again not everybody can say they are taken care of with laundry. So for day 4 I am thankful for laundry.

Gratitude Challenge For Days 1 & 2 & UPDATE

This month, I’m participating in a Gratitude Challenge hosted by Brenda at Garden of Learning. The challenge is to write a post each day in November about something that I am thankful for. That’s 30 days of gratitude posts!

Because I missed yesterdays post on the Gratitude Challenge I am doing todays and yesterdays. And the challenge is to post something everyday this month that we are thankful for. Shouldnt be so hard as we should be thankful for everything as the Bible says so here it goes...

Day 1-I am thankful for God's Amazing Grace. I have always loved this song. when i was little because of the tune...as i grew older the words. I am thankful for my salvation and for God's love. and with those came God's grace. and He says that His grace is sufficient and He never lies. His grace is sufficient for me and for you too. Do you know Him as your personal Lord and Saviour? If you do not please feel free to contact me at jonlovesjenny@yahoo.com. And I will gladly share Him with you.

I don't know how that I would survive witout Him. He is there through my ups and my downs. And I have a lot of those and I admit that I ride the emotional roller coaster but if I look right next to me God is there right beside me helping me and riding it with me because He NEVER leaves me. And even when i ditch Him He is still waiting there for me. So as for day 1 I am thankful for God's Amazing Grace.

Day 2- I am thankful for my family. God has truly blessed me with a wonderful family and He has also blessed me with 2 hands when i just wanna up and slap them sometimes too LOL i'm just kidding on the last part...well kinda...lol...

My family has helped me alot in my life. God blessed me with a wonderful husband and 3 beautiful rowdy kids. I love them all so much. My family supports me and they stick by me and they love me no matter how i treat them. Why? because that is what family does. I even have some pretty nifty in-laws so I have been triple blessed with family. :) So for day 2 I am thankful for my family. I LOVE YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH!


UPDATE:

My hubby went to the dr and they told him that he has diverticulitis. It is a digestive condition. He has to stay away from a lot of nuts and seeds and things that cause his flare ups. Also fried foods has to be limited to moderation...which to be honest everyone needs to limit that right? but its more so for him. His colon and stomach is infected right now and he is on antibiotics to get rid of it. Prayerfully he will start to be feeling better once those are gone. he also as meds for his flare ups. and he is on a steroid pack. Please pray that this is the true diagnosis and nothing more...the symptoms of diverticulitis and colon cancer are virtually the same. if these meds dont get him better then they have to do a colonoscopy to test for colon cancer. That terrifies me...

Me-well i went to the dr yesterday and they are thinking fibromyalgia which they gave me savella for. but they have to rule out so many things before they can officially say fibromyalgia. so more tests are in the future still for me. I am already premenopausal and i am only 24 years old. They also gave me neurotin. I can deal with the pain. I have been so far. I just dont know if i want to be put on those kind of pills right now with having early onset menopause. i dont want to take the chance of not being able to have any more kids. no i dont want or need anymore right now but in a year and a half or so i want to be able to have another one if i can. plus i hate taking pills...i know that i am being a whine bag about it but it is still my thoughts...i am going to be praying over this really really hard the next few days...I am in a lot of pain but i can deal with it if i need to...i have been so far. I just want to know what is wrong with me...Also one of the test they are testing me is my vitamin D level...hmm....

Well that is it for today i have a lot of things that i need to get done at my house and then start working on the christmas program! So excited about it!

Jenny

A Lot has happened the last few weeks...

Well it certainly has been awhile since i have updated my blog. It has been a little wild and crazy and busy busy busy. I am now completely moved in minus a few boxes that STILL need to be gone through and put away...oh hubby...LOL.

Anyways. I am starting to become more comfortable driving now. And lol the more comfortable i feel the more it seems that God is throwing new things my way but I guess He is preparing me for obstacles in the future lol. There has been some road work going on in like 3 different places in El Dorado that i have to drive through. And it seems that i dont get an advanced notice lol i kinda just have to wing it and figure it out on my own which i have done pretty good so far :)




(doing their physical therapy on their legs)

Squish has had 2 knee surgeries since the last time i have posted. She is trying to be a tough bird and i am rather proud of her. I know that she in a lot of pain still but she keeps pushing through it. She works on her house getting it cleaned up and maintained...dishes dont wash theirself and neither does laundry and things like that...it sure would be nice but well they just dont. I think i need a robot named rosie like off the jetsons lol that would be nice. wow the jetsons i havent watched that show in such a long time. Anyways she has pulled her hamstring from trying to do too much (of course if yall know her yall know that she is like super stubborn and doesnt like to wait too long for things to just up and do them theirselves) and on top of maintaining her home she is also keeping children's church and kids of the king and the older class running smoothly. She is just amazing!



My hubby had to go to the ER recently (last thursday) because all of a sudden when we were talking he doubled over in pain and he couldnt hardly talk and walk or anything. After many hours of waiting and doing a ct scan and finding nothing we were sent home with pain meds and for him to follow up with his dr which thankfully was able to get in to see at 9 this morning. Maybe we will get a more accurate diagnosis? the dr at the ER is guessing kidney stones...he is still in so much pain and gets sick even at the thought of food. but he is so tough and still goes to work so that he can support his family. I love him so much. he just pushed through the pain even though many times it is unbareable. And on top of that his leg and foot is hurting him again...wow...and he doesnt even complain. He just amazes me. And i want to just slap myself for getting annoyed with him over the pettiest things but its like i just cant help it sometimes... He truly is a good man and I love him so much. Not many men would put up and go through and deal with or push through what he does. and he does it because he loves me and the babies so much. And it is clear and he leaves no doubt about it. I LOVE YOU JONATHAN RAYMOND LOVE SR!!!!!












We went to the pumpkin patch a few days ago and even though we really couldnt afford it we sacrificed and did it anyways. The kids had so much fun. I never went to a pumpkin patch before (at least not that i remember) but it was so much fun watching the kids have a blast. I love family time :)




NéNé turned 2 on the 8th of this month. My baby girl is growing up so fast. We celebrated with the theme of curious george. She loves that gunky. that is how she says monkey. Right now she loves spending her days watching curious george, pink pather with her bubba THANKS STEPHEN FOR GETTING JR ADDICTED LOL and watching football with her daddy. wow this child loves her some football and at this moment she dont care what team is playing or if she watches her daddy play on the ps3 she just loves to watch football. But we are teaching her to love the dallas cowboys though LOL even though they aint doing so hot this season but o well we are sticking by em :) And of course every year we watch the making of the dallas cowboys cheerleaders together. i started it from the first season and me and her have been watching it since she was just a couple weeks old and this year we added zz to our little shendig :) I love having family time and i love spending time and making memories with my babies and my hubby.




And finally to end this post. My beautiful sister in law Britney and my little brother Robert had my gorgeous niece 2 nights ago. I am such a proud aunt and its killing me not to be able to see them or my neice Khloe and my nephew Myles. Khloe Chanelle Rodgers was born on October 26, 2010 at 12:39 am weighing 7 pounds 11.2 ounces and is 19 1/2 inches long. She has brown hair and is just absolutely beautiful! WELCOME TO THE WORLD COCO!







Jenny

Unfortunate & Fortunate Events

So it all started the day before we got to start officially moving in to our "new" home. Tuesday, August 31st. My mother in law and I were hanging curtains and it was really hot in the house as we hadnt moved our air conditioner yet. Well my mother in law passed out from dehydration and from not feeling good and not getting sleep. Well...she passed out off of the bench and hurt her leg. We thought it was broke and so we called th ambulance and they came rushing to the new house and rushed her off to the emergency room! A few hours later we found out that her leg was not broke. But "all kinds of tore up" from what the dr said. Then she was referred to a bone dr. Well a day or 2 later i started learning how to drive comfortably in El Dorado. lol. I'm rather proud of myself because i am doing pretty good now :) So if anything good came out of the fall was that i am now a driver lol.
Anyways. Squish and I went to see Dr. Rivers and she referred her to a different dr. and rehab and hopefully they will pay for everything. We are still waiting to hear back. We seen the dr this past tuesday and we found out that her ankle has a chip fracture (she has a chip out of her ankle) and her leg has torn ligaments and cartiledge. CRAZY! she is in a lot of pain but she is a trooper and a stubborn one at that LOL but im proud of her.

So we are just about moved in to our new house and squish even is helping alot. We have a system going on. Jonathan and Stephen go pack it up and bring it to the new house. Squish separates it into different baskets for the room (she can do it sitting on her butt) and i go put it away. We are almost done. Well i better go for now as we are hosting our first family night tonight. Watching the dallas cowboys GO COWBOYS and eating the food hubby grilled! YUM! well keep praying for news on the rehab situation! thanks and toodles!

Jenny

The Plans

Well today we started cleaning the "new" house. The house still looks rough but SOOOOOO much better than it did before. It was/is dirty from the landlord working on it so me, squish, and amanda spent a few hours scrubbing it down...we have a little bit to finish up in the morning/tomorrow afternoon. But we will be able to start setting up the furniture that was donated to us as we had very little of anything. But that is ok at this point if very little matches right now because we aint got to sit in the floor. and a little at a time we will remodel and fix up one room at a time and get nicer furniture for each room after we get the room done...those are the plans anyways. So if we get any visitors just know that it may not be as nice or as well decorated as your beautiful home but someday i will have that but hey you will have a place to sit :)

I am so thankful for my family because they are helping me move and get things ready and set things up to make it as nice as possible. And Squish is even trying to come up with little things to help make my "theme" rooms be a little more of my theme. It is so sweet. She is doing everything in her power to make me a little happier with it. I love her. I love all my in laws and my family. Stephen and Hubby have also spent a lot of time in this house as well and our landlady is working her little old self out trying to make it a nicer home for us. She is so sweet. they are all really going above and beyond for me and my family.

Oh i am so excited...If squish says yes i think i want to host the christmas moms meeting at my house. Like i said things aint gonna match or nothing but i will have lots more room and a place to sit. And i think we would have fun. :) and also so that i can say that i can have a moms meeting in my own home :) i havent gotten to invite friends over since i have been married but very little...i have had a couple people over at a time but never been able to hostess anything. I am just so excited. That was just a thought.

Well I am tired and hurting but I wanted to share my plans and what is going on. Official "MOVING" day is thursday but we will be setting our donated stuff in place tuesday and wednesday! SO EXCITED.

PS we are not moving away in case anybody was wondering. We are moving to the big white house on the corner of our street. right directly across from my mother in law. It is so convenient for all of us and im very happy about the location. It is just next door. from 326 to 340. not sure of why the big number jump but it is literally one yard over...yes im gonna have my own yard! WOOHOO! God has really blessed me so much :)

Jenny

The Contract has been signed...OFFICIAL HOMEOWNERS!!!!!!!

Well today was one of my worse days. I have felt sooooo horrible all day. In a lot of pain and horrible spinal headaches but i have such a sweet husband who has been pampering me today. I'm pretty sure i am going to have to go to the dr again. I already know that i am in early onset menopause and i have other issues...and with my oldest daughters birth i had an epidural to go bad...that was almost 2 years ago. Oh well...i dont want to be on pain meds all the time because even tylenol makes me so drowsy and makes me want to just sleep. So i just need prayer. Thanks. God has given me such a wonderful husband to take care of me when i have my "sick" spells and my worse days. God is so good!

In spite of that however, today also brings good and exciting news. this morning my hubby and i went to the bank with our landlords and we signed the contract for our new house! We are officially homeowners...we are so excited. of course there are things that still need worked on but that just goes with the territory. :) We get to start moving next weekend! Labor day weekend. My birthday is that saturday of labor day weekend! My hubby got me a house for my birthday! What an awesome birthday present lol. I think i will get him a new recliner for valentines day (with income taxes of course) as that was the deal. if he got me a bigger house then i would get him a new chair since i made him get rid of the other one. I am so excited about my gift :) My hubby did great didnt he? Thank you Lord for providing this wonderful opportunity and thank you hubby for my birthday present!

The house is now $26,000 because the electrician bill was higher than landlord expected but i knew it would be. :) but me and the hubby are fine with that as that is still a superb deal we are getting.

Well I am going to sign off of here and go lay back down as I am not feeling very good still. And me and hubby are gonna do a little packing tomorrow but also enjoy the day together. Maybe do a little "window" shopping for kids' christmas and house wants. i really want to have my bedroom painted too before we move...that is just a want but its what i have my heart set on...we may or may not have the money to buy the paint but hey i know that God is in control. And im a very greatful person right now to be blessed as much as i am. God is good!

Jenny

Love is a powerful thing...

Well Sunday night I got to sit with my hubby in church for the first time in a LONG time. You see my hubby works at Andy's and he is one of the managers. so he usually is scheduled to work on sunday morning and closes on wednesday night (wednesdays he does inventory). So he usually get to go to church on sunday night. It was such a blessing. Bro. Chris Dallas preached an amazing sermon from the Lord. And my hubby and I kneeled at the altar to pray together and we rededicated our lives to the Lord and having a christian home for our children to grow up in and we want to train our children and show them God's Love not only at church but also in our home. Please pray for us because it is so easy to let the devil in just by our attitudes and the way we live our lives. And please pray for me as you know how the saying goes "if she aint happy aint nobody happy" and its true when they say that the woman is the temperature of the home. Because if im not happy then it seems to flood over to my family members: my hubby and my babies. And i most certainly dont want to be a stumbling block. i struggle with my prayer life and my devotion life. I seem to "NEED" God when things are downhill but when things go great again i ditch Him and shame on me for doing that! I am so glad that He treats me so much better than the way i treat Him. He always welcomes me back with open arms. Thank God for His mercy and His grace. Because He give me far more than what I deserve. In family devotions tonight i read Psalms 119:174 "I have longed for thy salvation, O LORD; and thy law is my delight." I remember when i got saved that i longed for His salvation and His saving grace and I wanted to follow His law and i was happy. Why does it have to be any different nearly 16 years later? it dont. and with His help it wont be.

Well today was a super busy day. today i tackled mount foldmore. I had washed all my clothes and never folded them. i was super busy with the revival and then we are fixing to get ready to move and overall i have just been stressed and not feeling very good. Well i let my clothes get so behind that there was literally nothing left to wear for most of us. That was at least 2 weeks worth of laundry. Well i washed and washed and kept adding it to the pile to fold and put away later. well i got it all done except folding the socks and ironing 4 shirts. it took me 4 hours to fold and hang all those clothes! well lets just say i was exhausted! but im rather proud of myself...the rest of the house is for the morning.

Tonight my mother in law came over and we watched "17 Again" and it was pretty good. I enjoyed it. It made me think about how easy is it to complain about how we are or where we are in life or blame others for our actions. But shouldnt we own up to them. And were those actions good or bad? would you go back and change anything? Thinking back i wouldnt change the good or the bad because i wouldnt be where i am now if i did. And i love my husband and i love my kids and i love where God has me and i dont want to change what God has for me. lol kinda funny that a movie would make me think of things like this but thats ok because it was a thought worth thinking. I love my husband so much and i want to grow closer to him everyday as i grow closer to God. I want my babies to see the love we have for each other and our love for the Lord. I want to be able to be a good role model for them, in life, the way i live for God, and in my marriage. God gave me a good looking ;), softhearted, very loving man! I love you so much Jonathan Raymond Love Sr. Thank you for choosing ME as your bride. I wouldnt change it for the world or choose anybody different. I dont care how much you make, or how big or little you are, how sick or healthy you are I LOVE YOU. when i said i do for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness or in health i said I DO one of the few best words that i have ever said and with God's grace we will get to do it again :) And i didnt stutter when i said them...I LOVE YOU!

well Im pretty tired and hurting and i have more household chores to do when i get up so i am signing off of here with a smile on my face and joy in my heart...

Jenny Love

God's Amazingness!

Well i have many mixed emotions going through me right now and of course i am absolutely certain it is the devil. we had revival tonight and God moved so greatly in the church tonight but of course i was in the nursery. Dont get me wrong I LOVE MY NURSERY BABIES...love em love em love em but i have a teensy bit of a jealous emotion right now cuz when things go on at the church or whereever i am the one who seems to miss it...just once i would love to see God move in such a great way. but i dont have enough volunteers right now to work so i do the work myself so that others can get the opportunity to hear the Word of God but i am at the point that i desperately need church and i need the opportunity to be passed on to me as well...so i read these posts and hear these people talking of how the night was so amazing and i missed out and so yeah i know its petty and whatever but i have that teensy bit of a jealous emotion going on...dont get me wrong i am sooooooooooo glad that God moved and worked wonders tonight i just wished i couldve been in there to see it too but hey the babies needed me and we had a blast. :)

Well how about a positive note on how God moved? God is sooooo amazing. I was working in the nursery and all of a sudden my hubby comes and gets me to step out for just a minute and he was balling like a baby...so im thinking uh oh what is going on? he is balling and hugging me for like 5 minutes and not saying anything just hugging me and crying on my shoulder so in my brain (i remained calm on the outside) was thinking what is going on? did somebody die? is someone in the hospital? what? im starting to flip out in my brain...but then my wonderful hubby starts talking and he is telling me how God got ahold of his heart and broke down the walls that He has had put up for a really long time. and there has been so many ups and downs lately. It was just amazing to see God moving in Him. no i may not have been in that building and seeing everything but God allowed me to get just a little taste of His awesomeness. so thank you God for that!

Well please pray for me as I am potty training my oldest 2. Can you say stubborn? My son knows what to do but is perfectly content just being dirty and wet and he is 3 years old (turned 3 in may) He is just being lazy! And now on top of this we will be moving by labor day! But i am so stinking excited about getting a much better house. (i live in a 1 bedroom now with 3 babies and my hubby) and we will be moving next door and still staying across the street from my in laws. It used to be a duplex and my landlord is in the process of finishing fixing it up for us and he is selling it to us for $25,000 financed through him...no interest...and no bank! God is so good. it is a 5 bedroom, 2 bath, kitchen, mini kitchette, breakfast nook, dining room, and a livingroom. i have so many plans and themes for each room and eventually im gonna have everything i ever dreamed...and the first one is coming true soon! (as far as the house that is cuz my dreams of being married and having beautiful babies and an amazing family has come true already!) im gonna actually own a house and get to do what i want to with it :) im just so excited. Plans for decorating the next few years...Livingroom...Dallas Cowboys! furniture and all :) Office (1 bedroom) hubby wants razorbacks. Kitchen, breakfast room, and dining room is a sea/ocean theme. Jrs room...spiderman and friends. NeNes room...disney princess. and ZZs room is tinkerbell. Kids bathroom is frogs. And the other bathroom and mini kitchenette will be zebra! :) im pretty excited! We sign the contract on the 26th of this month and can start moving anytime after that but most likely not til labor day due to last minute touches. well i gotta go. its late and im tired. but im so very blessed and thankful for Gods goodness and mercy!

Love in Christ,
Jenny

Haven't posted in awhile because...

Well i just spent the last 4 1/2 hours trying to figure out and recover my username and password but well hey i finally found it so im gonna try this blogging thing one more time. i have emailed myself all of my information so that if this happens to happen again it will be easily found lol.

I'm keeping this short and sweet for now until i get up later in the day and can blog about what is new in my life. bare with me as i'm new to blogging (kind of a pro at facebooking lol) but i want to step away from only facebooking. dont get me wrong i love facebooking and playing on my frontier and things but there is sometimes i just want to start journaling. writing down my thoughts and just kind of keeping somewhat of a diary of my life and the things and people in it. and hey this way is cheaper as it saves on ink/lead/paper. :) well it is super late and way past my bedtime so i am signing off for now and will blog again later and tell my latest news...stay tuned...

Jenny

Starting Out...

I love my life. Yes it is hard sometimes but it sure aint boring and it would be very boring if everything came easy. I married the love of my life on June 9, 2006. Jonathan Love Sr. He has given me 3 very beautiful babies so far. Jonathan Love Jr, Charity-Anne, and Faithe-Makenzie. I don't know what i would do without them.

I am calling this blog a journey because that is what life is..a Journey and i want to make the best of this journey. And the journey that i would like to embark on now is losing all of this excess weight. I don't like the way i look and it effects the way i see myself. i have a lot to lose. I'm not going to set a specific amount as a total overall but i will set goals of 5 pounds at a time. I will keep people updated weekly or try my very best too. I get really discouraged so i am trying to make the goal reachable enough to keep me going. There are so many times that i wish i could afford the personal trainer, or the ali, or the acai berry and other things but i cant. I dont have that kind of money. I dont want to get so far downhill that i have a much harder time climbing back to the top. So please pray for me.

And for anyone who reads this please know that i am going to be real 100% of the time on here. I struggle with depression and i ride the emotional roller coaster. Things are probably not going to seem upbeat all the time and that should be ok. How boring to read the same stuff over and over again. But i will sure try my best to keep the happy upbeat state of mind. I need God and the support of my friends and family to help me get out of this rut that i am in and to help me with this weight loss journey. Also something came up and we are set back a lot of money and it has me very overwhelmed. We can bounce back as we have before but the incident was really stupid and thats whats making me overwhelmed as well. the whole situation doesnt make a whole lot of sense but God says that His mercy endureth forever even in our low estate. Psalms 136:23 "Who remembered us in our low estate: for his mercy endureth for ever:"

Well i must go for now as my little Kenzie girl is calling my name. My baby boy is really sick so please pray for him to feel better soon. And Charity-Anne is staying the night with her mamaw. My hubby has to be at work early (at 4:30 am). So goodnight everyone!