Count Your Blessings

Here lately I have been really down, broke, and hurting. Stressed out...and so much more. My hubby and I knew that these last few months were going to be really hard. Well we have been ok so far even being really broke and me and the hubby have given up a lot of stuff until we get income taxes and our money will be so much better. We moved into our house 5 months earlier than what we had planned...and we werent completely prepared nor did we have the chance to prepare. (Bare with me this is not all about being negative this is just the background.) Only one more month...we have been dealing with it ok and then now its Christmas time...it hit us hard. We have shed many tears in these last 2 weeks. we want the best for our kids. We love them so very much and we are willing to sacrifice for them. well my hubby has been working many hours and it SEEMS like we have had nothing to show for it. We dont go out to eat, we get our bare necessities...but then last night i couldnt sleep and while i was thinking and crying over all of this i realized this...we do have something to show for it really...we have all of our bills paid, we are together, and our babies are taken care of. We have food in our house and clothes to wear, and a house to live in. we even have our tv and cable so we have our entertainment as well. Oh it may be that we dont get our "wants" but we have our "needs" and that is what is important. I guess with Christmas coming so soon that we were stressing about buying christmas for our babies. and for each other. well my uncle and aunt helped us out so much with the kids' christmas. They put money on a walmart card (and they have been helping us the last few months since september to get us through to income taxes so that we could get our necessities and it has helped out so much) But this month was really special to me. they put extra money on there for black friday to get the kids' christmas and said the gifts were from us. and that in december they would put money on the walmart card for gifts from them. That made me ball. I realized that I am really blessed. It doesnt matter how much we fight, ignore each other, get along i know that they will be there for me. i know that i have a family who cares and loves me and makes sure that I am taken care of. I also have God who gave me such a good family. Now my kids' christmas is taken care of. God also gave hubby extra hours to get each other some christmas and me his birthday.

Not only have we been blessed by my aunt and uncle but also my in-laws. they have been so good to us also. They let us go shopping in their christmas stash for me and my hubby. I shopped for him and he shopped for me. And we were gonna pay for everything. well they typed us out a bill and this is what is aid: Bill for christmas gifts: $0. and it went on to say that is what parents do they help out their kids without expecting anything in return. there was at least $75 worth of stuff. Of course that made me cry too. I have been really emotional lately AND NO I AINT PREGO LOL. So this morning (4 am) i started thinking "jenny, why are you being so down and negative so much? why dont you start counting your blessings rather than counting your issues?" so here it goes just to name a few.

1. I have a wonderful merciful Savior who loves me and gave His life for me and is ALWAYS there for me even when I ditch Him and aint so good to Him.
2. I have a fantastic hubby who goes to work and works so many hours just to provide for his family because he loves us so much.
3. I have 3 beautiful wild and crazy yet so cute and adorable babies. They are my life and I love them so very much.
4. I have a fantastic family.
5. I married into a great family as well.
6. I have a good church and I love being the nursery director and having a part in my church babies lives.
7. I was able to have all of my secret sister gifts bought before i moved into my house except for 1 (and I am one of those people who pick our certain gifts for my person for which month and when I give it to that person and i was missing 1 gift back in october and i had myself a melt down because i didnt even have the money to get that but squish and amanda helped me out so thank yall)
8. My bills are paid and the ones that aint yet we have the money to pay them.
9. We have a vehicle to drive and I am now comfortable enough to drive it
10. We have a house to sleep in, fight in, play in, smile in, clean, and just be home

those were just to name a few. Yes I am very blessed.

Im hoping that I will be able to afford to get some of these diet drops to try that some of my friends are doing. They aint very much but to me a $1 is too much lol. I have to lose weight and I also want to lose weight. For my health and also because my wedding renewal is in a year and a half. and i want to look good. I dont like the way i look right now but with God's help and support and my familys as well i will. Please pray that I can also get the scholarship for the health works program. my dr signed me up for it because she says it will help with fibromyalgia and losing the weight will help with it too. Oh and also i was told that I have a really really low vitamin d level so i have to walk in the sun more and take maximum strength vitamin d every day. Yep i think thats the update on me. My new motto is "too blessed to be stressed" and if that dont work "fake it tiil i make it"