The Joke Is On Us

Ok warning this could get to be a tad graphic but this is MY blog and i will write what i want...

I have been really hurting and "sick" (not morning sickness either) for a week. but the last 3 days...saturday, sunday, and monday i was in extreme pain...i am pretty good at staying calm and and faking it til i make it...and sunday i definately did a good job at it lol. Anyways yesterday i was in soooooooooooooooooooo much pain lower back, pelvic area, stomach it was just about unbearable. and jonathan was working yesterday til 4 and then had to go get the tire fixed after that. and i was hurting really bad and he said he would stay home from class but i told him no i would be ok until he got home. i made it til 6 what was 3 more hours? I told him the best way i could describe the pain was like when i was in labor those last 2 weeks of nene and i was in just so much pain. i even counted the intense pain it was 30 seconds every 3 minutes. and he made the joke about well if its every 10 seconds call me and go to the hospital. (background...jr was playing basketball with stephen and his pants fell down and we all started laughing. he looked at us all with a stoned shocked face and said "this is not funny" lol) so i told my hubby in the words of jr "this is not funny" and we were laughing. and i was like im not pregnant besides i took a test 3 weeks ago and it said not pregnant. so we laughed and he gave me a pain pill and his mom and brother came and got the kids (which im so glad they werent home). I fell asleep in the recliner and about 8:30 pm (i coulda been hallucinating from the pain pill LOL) i swear i saw the ninja mouse (more about that later LOL) sitting on the foot rest of the recliner staring at me when i woke up. Well i had to go pee and as i was getting up lets just say stuff starting falling out...large handsized amounts...(i had been passing quarter size clots all day) but this was WAY worse. So i quickly gathered it up and texted squish to come over to my house now!! and she came a running (i know i freaked my daddy in law out but i tried to warn him to stay on the porch...he is just a stubborn man...bet he wishes he wasnt so stubborn now LOL) and seen what was in my hand a HUGE and i mean HUGE blood clot (but we wasnt sure what it was)(on a shirt actually). i go change clothes and off we go to the ER and my texting queen sis in law texted everyone and squish starting making phone calls and hubby rushed to the ER from class.

We sat in the room a few hours and im still passing huge clots and they are drawing blood and running tests...then about 10 or 11 they came in and said that i was between 6 and 10 weeks pregnant and had miscarried. i was like WHAT!!!!!????? no way. i was trying to prevent it and i was trying to lose weight and get ready for the wedding renewal. I was just in total shock. after they left i just started crying on my hubby blaming myself. and whatever. well about an hour and half later the ultra sound tech came in and said the dr wanted to do an ultra sound and just check to make sure everything was gone or if id have to stay and get cleaned out basically...and it confirmed i was definately pregnant but the tech said well it looks like you are gonna pass it but i cant say that officially the dr who is looking at it will come and tell you the results soon...so we waited about 30 minutes to an hour...well guess what im apparently 8 weeks pregnant and am on strict bed rest i lost too much blood (10 pounds worth) and im in danger of losing the baby but i have a 50/50 chance of not if i go home and do just absolutely nothing. so this is what i am doing. im having another baby! what!? so crazy and totally not planned. please pray that the baby makes it because we are done after this one. we cant do this anymore. i have always wanted 4 (wasnt planning on even trying for another year) and was told already that im going through early onset menopause. but they said that it wasnt anything i could have controlled...my blood is opposite of the babys. thankfully i have a universal doner hubby. they gave me 2 shots one for the blood and another for the pain and i was able to go home. but every pregnancy has been worse. and me and him just cant emotionally take it anymore...neither can the rest of the family both sides mine and his...but if this one makes it we are getting that spring thingy done...they shoot a spring that grows your tubes together and prevents you from getting pregnant permanently and its not reversible. i fought it last time cuz i wanted just one more baby if we could. but im not fighting it any more. my heart cant take this emotional stress any more. but anyways thanks for all the prayers and even though we were joking about it HAHA it turned around on us and now the joke is on us when the dr was like SURPRISE you are 8 weeks pregnant. Now its the fun task of getting medicaid (which ive been put on the urgent list maybe that will speed them up) and getting in to seeing dr. booker. wow. im still trying to take it all in and rest of course.

hubby just texted and said i have an appointment at 10 am friday! wow i guess urgent means something!

Update on ZZ

Thursday ZZ was officially released from the burn unit. This happened On Sunday night January 9, 2011 I had made Myself a glass of hot tea and was going to relax and let her and her brother and sister wind down and get ready for bed. Her sister wet her clothes and I sat my tea down out of their reach (I thought) and started changing her sister. Unknown to me she crawled over and grabbed the glass. Before I could get to her, she spilled the hot tea on herself and she got burned from the neckline to waist in the front And top of diaper area. Oh i felt so horrible. I just knew thgat she was gonna be scarred up and it was gonna be all my fault and she would have to live with it the rest of her life. But she doesnt! God is so good He has completely healed her! I am so grateful for all of the prayer that was sent out on her behalf! Thank you again from the bottom of mine and jonathans heart and other family!

Jenny

Congratulations to the new Mr. & Mrs. Anthony Master

Well the time has come and gone. My sister in law married her best friend Anthony Master on Saturday, August 6th at 3:30 pm. The wedding was absolutely beautiful. I was one of the bridesmaids in it. I felt priveleged. i really felt privileged when she asked specifically of a picture of just me and her! totally didnt expect that. I mean i expected to be in pictures but not one of just me and her. It really made me :).

We had some issues at the beginning...some of the help with food preparation ran late and the biggest thing was the hair dresser! she showed up REALLY late it was ridiculous how late she was. That was the 2nd time she was supposed to come through for us and it was the 2nd time she fell short so needless to say me and Squish are on the hunt for a new hair dresser. LOL But thats ok it all turned out great.

Oh and my mother in law got super fancy and even wore makeup! The first time i have seen her wear makeup in 5 years! she really should more often. She was beautiful...not that she aint without LOL she looked beautiful in a different way!

Well it was time to start and the ceremony was beautiful but before time for the bride to walk the brides daddy AKA my father in law broke down and had his moment. He cried He was happy for her but sad at the same time. It was sweet and emotional! And it was hard on him...i think he still needs a few more days to adjust LOL. But it was so sweet. I am glad that they have a father/daughter moment that they will always remember. I didnt have that with my dad being passed away when i was 3. So it really makes me smile knowing that they have that special moment to look back on.

I dont think it could have been any more of a perfect wedding for her. She got everything that she wanted and that is just wonderful! Im so happy for them!

Today they finished moving to their new home in McAlester, Oklahoma to help in a ministry at Cornerstone Baptist Church. I ish them well and love and happiness! I will miss her but hey life goes on! I gained a new brother in law and whats better than adding to the family? I love family!

So to end this blog post Congratulations Anthony & Amanda Master We are praying for you always and we love you! Enjoy this new life and love that you have and make new memories!





Janine Mullinax Photographer of Jag & Dyl's Photography took these and did an amazing job! thank you Janine!

They are all good but the last one is my favorite! so sweet and sentimental!

A Very Eventful Weekend & 25th Anniversary Wedding Renewal

Well this past weekend was very eventful. Our weekend started out with me and my mother in law getting robbed. We were decorating for her 25th anniversary wedding renewal and usually we lock up the doors every time we leave one building and go to another but for some odd reason we didnt. It was late and we just wanted to get the auditorium of our church finished decorating. Well some time between when my sister in law cleaned up and left to the time that we went back over to the fellowship hall (10:15 pm-1:01 am) we discovered mine and her purses were stolen and lets not forget kays snowflake chrystals she was gonna use to finish up their wedding cake decoration. LOL dont know why they wanted those but i hope they enjoyed them LOL. My mother in law had just cashed her hubbys paycheck earlier that day so they lost his entire paycheck along with other vital cards and information. I lost $1 and other vital cards and information. That was how our weekend started. So their honeymoon got cancelled and we used the money that wouldve been used and sent them to dinner they were gonna do something and enjoy it. but we will get to that part in a little bit. We talked to A policeman and reported it then went home.

Saturday morning. Time to get ready for this wedding renewal (thank God the decorations were untouched and we were safe) she receives a text saying (an hour before the appointment)that her hair dresser was not gonna fix her hair. So i had to call a sweet friend (janine) and she came to the rescue. Of course we are on and off the phones all morning so we were running late. But janine came to our rescue and fixed amanda's and squish's hair and did a beautiful job! Ms. Peggy got my girls dressed and ready to start. She did everything i asked her to do and more. Kay finished up the cakes and did an amazing job on them as usual and Stacy helped me finish setting up the food for the reception. These ladies majorly stepped up and helped me in my crazy frantic state to finish everything up. Amanda, Stephen, Jonathan, and Anthony did as well. We all pulled together and made it through this.

Saturday Afternoon. we were ready to start. My hubby and father in law walked in and the wedding had begun. (Anthony was the sound and video man and helped with the ceremony) Amanda walked with nene while she was throwing her flower petals she was so cute and amanda was beautiful! Then me and jr walked down the aisle while he was carrying his ring bearer pillow. Then stephen and ZZ walked down the aisle. Then it was time for the bride to walk down the aisle. It was so sweet. My father in law starting crying when Dylan and Squish started walking down the aisle. So awesome that after 25 years he still cried and seen her beautiful! and she is! It was just a wonderful, sweet, and loving service. My hubby did a great job performing it! and i dont regret doing anything or buying anything for it. I would do it all over again just the next time during decoration i would've locked my purse in a cabinet or something LOL. Janine took lots of pictures and i am axious to see them! so grateful for her taking them for us.

Saturday night. We all sent them out to eat. We were determined that they had to at least do that. When they got home my father in law went to go get ice to make virgin dacqueris and he gets pulled over in his yard over none other then expired tags! (its been a really crazy year with so many things going on) And they called for backup! so it took 3 policeman to handle dishing out an expensive ticket (and a big ordeal to go with it) for expired tags! A bit excessive i must say! But only 1 for 2 stolen purses! WOW. insanity!

The rest of the weekend. I am so happy that there are a few ladies and people that stepped up in areas needed for my mother in law and father in law to get the contents of her purse replaced. Some Money was given, a new purse and wallet with a brush in it was given, groceries bought. I was blessed just seeing them get blessed! Amanda also gave me one of her purses and i love it. It is red, black, and white polka dots. Cute and small and me :). thanks amanda!

We were able to take care of most of our stuff monday, DHS, half of the social security office, bank, revenue office, we still gotta do a few more things but it is slowly getting all back together. Yes this hurt alot. more than what people would think. I love watching my mother in law getting blessed. I am fortunate enough to get to see it firsthand. She lives across the street and we do a lot of things together. But watching the smile on her face and the tears of joy. And the unexpected gifts of love. I love seeing that. i am very happy for her. So thank you to those who put that smile on her face and the tears of joy in her eyes! You will never truly know how much that means to me!

Now to prepare for my beautiful sister laws wedding coming up in just a few short days! Im so happy she asked me to do something for decorations for her wedding! it made me smile. It was totally unexpected. But im not spilling the beans yet! you will just have to wait til after August 6th.

Acts 20:35b "It is more blessed to give than to receive." How true those words of Jesus are!

Jenny

Busy Memory Making Summer!

Wow its been a long time since i have updated! My weight loss has been doing really good so far! have lost 16 pounds so far out of 80 so that leaves 64 pounds to go. I am almost 1/4 of the way there! Very excited!

This summer has been a very busy and overwhelming, and stressful all at the same time. But this summer is one that many memories are gonna be made. My mother in law and father in law are renewing their vows on July 16th 1 month exactly before their 25th anniversary. It's not fancy by any means but they didnt want fancy. They wanted simple LOL. It cost money so simple is fine with me LOL but money worth spending for sure. What if they dont make it to their 50th? So i am very happy that me and hubby are giving them a 25th wedding anniversary wedding renewal. And let me tell ya the shipping is where it gets ya LOL i know that now for when me and hubby renew our vow next june LOL. I am very happy about doing this. And it is coming up quickly! In fact it is this saturday. So of course i will have to update again in a few days LOL. There are still a few last minute things that need done. and of course the decorating which we should be able to start doing in a day or 2.

3 weeks after my in-laws wedding renewal is my sister in-laws wedding. Her dress and her complete ensemble is beautiful. She is gonna make a beautiful bride. She is marrying her fiance Anthony Master and they will be living in McAlester, Oklahoma. They will be getting married August 6th.

I am definately ready for the summer to be over but at the same time I wouldnt wanna pass up the memories that are being made. Of course i get frustrated and overwhelmed but what human dont? So thankful for the ones who lend a listening ear and not change their opinions of others because of the venting. Just a little appreciation goes a long way and sometimes people allows frustration and stress to get in the way of showing appreciation. Would i do this summer all over again YES i would and probably wouldnt change a thing. No amount of money that was spent, no time put into it, and the love that goes into these things. Yeah i would do everything the same way again.

God has been so good to me and has blessed me so much. My daughter got burnt in january and healed very nicely and quickly. We go back August 18th to childrens and hopefully she will get fully released. The only problem we have is needing EXTRA sunscreen cuz she sunburns in her burned areas very quickly. I am thankful for all of the prayers and love and support! PS i can once again drink hot tea again without bursting into tears! LOL

Well off to go plan a menu for the in laws wedding renewal reception then make a grocery list. Wonder if i can talk her into going shopping with me...LOL have a wonderful and blessed day all!

I just dont know...

Today I have been really down. Yesterday as a very rough day. Poured out my heart and feelings and thoughts and got absolutely nowhere. nothing changed. Suprise Suprise. Really frustrating and sad at the same time. Thats gonna be the last time i pour out my heart and feelings in a long time.

Well today my day started out with a couple phone calls. Apparently my email was hacked and therefore my facebook got hacked as well. And before you ask i had logged out and everything so that was not the reason that i was hacked. Apparently it was someone in Africa that hacked me! And whats even worse is they sent out an email to my friends that I had to make an unexpected trip to London for a family who got sick or something and i got mugged and that i needed almost $2000. Whatever. LOL And a few of my friends replied back with a stupid answer and this person who hacked tried to make out it was really me. LOL apparently they werent as smart as they thought that they were. 1 i have no family in London that i know of. 2 I dont even have the desire to even go to London. and 3 i dont have the money to go even if i wanted to go...I aint got the money to go to hot springs which is 2 hours away much less a trip around the world! So if you received that email it was NOT from me. I have also been temporarily shut down from facebook until they can straighten it out. My hubby filed a hacked report with them and they are working on it...so hopefully i will get to be back on there soon. As far as i understand i think you can still see pictures and stuff you just cant see any posts (i cant make any either) or anything on my wall...its insane. Hopefully it will be fixed soon though!

I did have a pretty great 5th anniversary though! Hubby cooked steak! yum! then we went to the movies...we seen pirates of the carribean 4 and Fast 5. Yes hubby scraped up change to go see those movies! it was very sweet of him to dip into his game fund (the change he collects) to take me out to the movies to celebrate our 5th anniversary!

I have lost a total of 10.2 pounds out of 80 so far! I have went 30 days without dessert. A friend of mine did send me a low calorie dessert that i am gonna try! Thanks Karen! I have went without desserts for a long time and im anxious to try it! Only 69.8 pounds to go! I hope that i can lose it all by april 9, 2012! Thats my cutoff date and exactly 2 months til the wedding to order the wedding dress that i want! im very proud of myself. Thank you all for the many prayers i really appreciate them and please keep them coming!

Well i hope that my day is better tomorrow! now signing off to go spend time with my hubby and watch the voice then chopped then read my bible and bed. I havent felt very good today and im tired!

PS happy birthday to my mother in law!

5th Anniversary & Blog Giveaway!

My son turned 4 on the 27th of May. Wow time has slipped by way too fast. Not only that but i am celebrating my 5th anniversary next thursday on the 9th! Whoa! its been 5 years already? And I am falling more and more in love with my hubby with each day and year that passes by. He is so sweet. Dont get me wrong we have our ups and downs and sometimes i just wanna kick him LOL but I refrain LOL. BUt in all seriousness June 9, 2006 was one of the best days of my life! I married my best friend. He is so good to me. he spoils me and he loves me unconditionally and he still keeps me around when i become bratty sometimes (i know what you are thinkin' jonathan raymond sr! sometimes? how bout all the time...) But you know you love me anyways :).

To celebrate this milestone of making it to our 5th anniversary and going strong I bought him a new camera. A canon rebel. And he is so good with it. One of the things that he is starting to do with it is scripture photography! So in honor of our 5th anniversary and his anniversary gift from me (yes i gave it to him early) I am posting a giveaway. Please 1st have liked Studio 13 Photography then tell me your favorite Bible verse and why it is your favorite. Post it on this page (or in the note on my facebook page) And you will get a chance to win an 8x10 Custom Scripture Photography Photo! The giveaway ends next wednesday at midnight June 8th and i will draw the winner on June 9th!

I am extremely proud of him and I love my husband so much!

VENT & FYI

So i posted something on facebook that was supposed to be a text to my mom. It contained info about the diet i am doing. There are certain people who are getting all kinds of crazy cuz of what they "think" im doing. So i will tell you what i am doing since its so much of a concern. I am watching what i eat. I made a commitment to myself to avoid sugars, starches, unneccessary fats, oil, grease. JUNK food. for a minimum of 21 days. then i will start the next 21 days. After i lose this weight i will be MAINTAINING it. I am counting my calories to make sure that i dont go over a certain amount. And I said i wasnt eating past 8 pm period! i read somewhere that the later you eat the harder it is to lose weight. I personally like to eat the majority of my calories for dinner rather then lunch because it sustains me throughout the night. I am not a breakfast person. Well let me rephrase that. I LOVE breaskfast foods but i dont normally eat at breakfast times. I am also doing the wii fit for an hour a day, 30 minutes in the morning and 30 minutes in the evening. I am renewing my vows on my 6th anniversary which is 54 weeks away to have the wedding of my dreams and i need to lose the weight to wear the dress of my dreams. I obviously cant wait til last minute to lose all the weight i need to and still have time to order and fit my dress so i am starting now. I have given myself til April 9th to have lost several pounds and inches. and my downfalls are sugars, starches, blah blah blah...so pardon me if I am making my calories count rather then wasting them. Im choosing Splenda over sugar for my tea...im choosing healthy meats over greasy ones...im choosing fresh fruits over my cake and other desserts...im choosing fresh veggies over buttered down veggies...so again i say pardon me for not wasting my calories on pizza and chicken nuggets and fries (which by the way i love and giving up for the cause right now) but rather on healthier foods. I gotta learn it now or else it wont stay off. And me and my mom are keeping each other accountable. Its easier to do it with someone even long distance than alone. Myh husband is supporting me and encouraging me and saying what i need to hear when i try to beg him to go get me mcnuggets. When i get to the point where i told him that i can have a cheat day then i will get them. Thats gonna be my reward to myself and he is helping me stay on track...Would i love nothing better to have chicken nuggets and fries over a chicken salad well duh! but is that gonna aid me in my weight loss? no! I personally do way better if i am stricter on myself then allowing too many cheat days...i end up quitting. So far i am on day 4 of the first 21. they say it takes 21 days to make or break a habit so im trying to eat totally 100% healthy for 21 days then i will go another 21 days...and so on. I am working really hard right now. have i wanted to quit already? yep but i havent. and My mom and hubby are keeping me on track. I know it takes determination and will power (which im lacking in will power so they are helping me keep it up LOL) to make this happen! So rather then tattling on me to husband or telling him what they think i should or shouldnt do 1. talk to me...im not a child. 2. encourage me rather then criticizing me at least im getting off my lazy too many excuses butt and doing something about my fat self (i HATE the way i look and im tired of my excuses) and 3. support me! THANKS IM MAKING MY CALORIES COUNT NOT WASTING THEM!

I think that is all i have to say right now...thank you and good night!

Jenny Love

My baby is turning 4 on Friday! & More

Wow...it has been awhile since i have posted.

I have been sitting here thinking...wow...in 3 short days my baby boy turns 4! It hardly seems real that he should be that old already! I remember sitting in the hospital after 47 1/2 hours of labor waiting for my son to be born. Our firstborn.




I absolutely LOVE this picture. This is SR and JR the day he was born. This is my favorite picture of the 2 of them. Jonathan is such a good daddy. He was so proud this day! And he still is. This was taken in the spur of the moment and really was not posed or planned. And i think that is why its so special and sweet. It brings me to tears of joy when i look at it.

Now my baby is gonna be 4 in just 3 short days. He makes me mad sometimes lol with his honoryness, but he makes me so happy, so full of love and he fills my life full of blessings and joy! I wouldnt trade him for anything or anyone.





He is so full of happiness! I love this. And i Love being his mommy!

My hubby is doing photography now In fact he took the last 2 pictures i posted. He does an amazing job i think. It is something he is doing on the side. I am really proud of him! Here is the link go check out his page and like it!

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150249099755948.367756.726470947#!/pages/Studio-13-Photography/212809002073927

I have started my weight loss back again and exercise. I am doing 30 minutes of wii fit in the morning and 30 minutes of wii fit at night and eating better! i have made a decision to eat strictly (what i consider strictly of no sweets) the first 21 days (they say it takes 21 days to make or break a habit then when they are done then i will reward myself. I want to earn my sweets LOL and so far so good. Sweets are my downfall and junk food too...i like my chicken nuggets and fries but im saying no to them for 21 days. I am on the end of day 2. You may think im crazy but thats ok. I am trying to get to where i dont want it ALL the time. Because if and when i lose the weight and inches i want it to only be a treat and not something that is all the time. Mashed potatoes and corn (MY favorites but i want it all the time) and thats only going to make me gain it back. so i want to train my brain and body to not want it all the time. if that makes sense. so if i bring my own food or i say no thank you then you will know why. I am really trying hard and i would ask only encouragement from you. I am determined. So please please pray for me!

well i guess that is all for now! Now off to have some family time before bedtime :)

Jenny Love

Decisions...Decisions...And so much more...

Here lately i have been really stressed. But what good has it really done me? it hasn't so why not change that? I have always loved the phrase since i first heard it "Attitudes are Contagious...Is yours worth catching?" Well i am sad to say that mine hasn't been. I might not can change the circumstance or the situation but i can change how i deal with it. I heard a message recently by my preacher about prayerlessness. I havent been praying as much as i should be...no were near it in fact. that hasnt helped my attitude or my stress level either. Why? because I was trying to deal with the stress and the situation on my own and all that was happening was making my stress level higher and my attitude worse. Now am i ever not gonna have a stinkin' attitude again? i doubt it but i can work on my attitude which is what I plan on doing. Being more positive once again.

This week is Missions Conference. A crazy hectic week. But I LOVE IT!!! Last night i was able to sit and enjoy the preaching. And he talked about how we only do as much as we WANT to. We pray as much as we want to, read our Bibles as much as we want to. That struck a cord in me. Wow...I have heard that if I want it i most always get it...why is it that i haven't really wanted to be a stronger christian? wanted to read my Bible and pray more? It is a want thing. If I want to do it then it gets done and if i don't then it dont in everything that i do. Definately hit me where it hurt but something i really needed to hear. Thanks Bro. Hendricks for saying what God wanted you to say! Now it's been given to me now i need to apply it to me.

Tonight I have nursery and Squish (my mother in law) has class. This has been a long week this week especially for the little babies and little kids so we put our noggins and our money together and we are gonna do something "special" with the kiddos. The theme of the week for the kids have been "fishing for men" and the VeggieTales movie "jonah and the whale" was on sale and we decided that the lesson we would have movie night. It will be fun and something special for the kiddos. I am pretty excited.

My Zebra print skirt that my hubby bought me for Easter and to take our family pictures in came in! and I love it!. Now i just need to find a shirt that i like to go with it! :) I am very excited.

There is so much going on from now til August 6th. A super busy but memorable summer. I need to sit down and put the events in order in a list and plan and budget.

My favorite brother in law turned 16 yesterday! wow. I remember when we first. He has grown up so much since then. I am proud to call him my brother in law and i do love him very much! And he such a blessing to me and my family!

Well laundry is definately calling my name. My hubby was super sweet and he cleaned the house for me! God sure did give a wonderful hubby!

Jenny