JET and ME

Well it has been a LONG time since I have posted. One of the things that i want to try to be more faithful at is blogging again. I don't care how many people read what I write but I write because it helps me. Well I have let that slip bad.

Anyways. JET is here. He was born on July 19th and weighed 7 pounds 10 ounces and was 19 inches long. He is a healthy little boy and he thinks he is starving all the time lol. He is definately a mommas boy. He reminds me so much of his big sissy NeNe. They were close in birth stats and she is a major mommas girl. My other 2 are a daddys boy and a daddys girl. At least they were split evenly. LOL. 2 for daddy and 2 for mommy.

The surgery didnt go fantastic tho. I think I had an allergic reaction to some meds or something. I don't know exactly what happened and neither does the dr. He did say that it was very unusual to get an awful migrine in the middle of a surgery though. I was talking to my hubby and i heard the dr say "its a boy" and i got a headache and as i was asking about the headache it got way worse. my head started pounding and i was blacking out literally. all i was seeing was black and red. I couldnt see anything. not even my husband who was standing next to me. it was scary and they kicked him out and i was panicking which when they kicked him out it only made me panic all the more because i wanted him there but the dr said he had to go. they ended up putting me to sleep because i was panicking so bad and kept blacking out. I dont remember even going to the recovery room at all. When i woke up i woke up in my room and had a migraine then too. I have been battling some pretty rough headaches since the surgery 2 1/2 weeks ago. the dr is even trying me on caffeine which i havent had in over 6 years for other health issues. it doesnt seem to do much except cause the rest of my body pain. I'm not really sure if there is anything that can be done. Tylenol don't touch it and neither does a much stronger pain pill. So i suppose i will just be living with it. I can honestly say that I had a good natural birth, a bad natural birth, a good c-section, and a bad c-section. So when asked the question "which is better or easier? natural birth or c-section?" Well it really just depends. As a general rule natural is the better way to go. I just happened to be one of those weird women who gone through a good one and a bad one in both natural and surgery. But I am so thankful that God took care of me in all 4 deliveries. Before we had Jet my hubby and I talked to the dr (3 different ones actually) and we were told that it wouldnt be a good idea for me to have anymore because of health reasons. So got fixed permanently. There is a little part of me that is thankful since the last surgery was so rough but there is a huge part of me that is struggling with the permanence of it. Don't get me wrong I am very blessed and grateful for my 4 beautiful babies. I have always wanted 4 and we werent sure we would have our 4. And I am grateful that we wont have to suffer through another miscarraige. 2 was more than enough. But there is something about it being permament that breaks my heart. We can no longer decide to have another one down the road. I don't really know how to explain what I am feeling. But What's done is done. I am very blessed. I have been struggling with some things here lately and it has me really down so i would appreciate the prayers. I keep everything to myself and I am just really struggling. Weight Loss Journey. Yes it is back on. I am going back on my eating healthy again. And then in October I will be adding my wii fit back in. I have enough time to lose the 60 pounds that I want to lose between October and the end of April. I want to be able to wear whatever wedding dress i choose and look nice in it and feel like i look nice in it. I am my biggest critic. Sometimes I think this is so stupid I am already married...have been for 6 years going on 7 and I want to be able to look nice in a wedding dress???? seriously that is such a waste of money and the people (if anyone shows up) are gonna think it is so stupid. I didn't get to have the wedding of my dreams nor wear a wedding dress and have that fairytale wedding i dreamed of because of my decisions that i made and it cost me in this area. but ive already been married for 6 years and i want to have a big splashy wedding? for what? i have a house that needs majorly repaired and my kids school, and we could use that money where it is needed in other places and here i am wanting to waste money on a stupid dream wedding. I feel like this is only taking away from my kids and I feel horrible about it and I feel like others will only think its just a waste of time and money and i dont know. one of the things i am struggling with. Back to positivity again...I cant believe that my oldest baby is starting school in just a week!! its crazy. I am probably gonnaa be one of those crazy mommas that cries after I leave him lol. My babies are growing up sooo fast and i dont like it LOL. But I trust his teachers and I know that they will do their best in teaching him from an edcuational standpoint and a spritual standpoint. Well I am off to go watch the Biggest Loser on netflix lol. Motivation for when I can add exercise to my losing weight. In all seriousness Please pray for me that i can lose this weight and be happy with my size. God bless, Jenny Love

*EXCITING NEWS*

I haven't gotten to post in awhile because for some reason my computer wont let me log into my blog so that I can. But I can log in from my hubby's computer.

Well we found out that we are having a baby boy!! He is due on July 27th but we are scheduled to have him July 19th. We are calling him JET. We didn't just intentionally keep it a secret indefinately about us expecting. We just wanted to hear or see the heartbeat or at least know something before we told again. With just having the miscarriage I was afraid of having to go back and retract and tell everyone that we lost the baby. We went to the dr February 1st but it was just weird. He didnt do anything but blood work and schedule the ultrasound for the next visit. He didn't use the doppler or anything. So we knew nothing more than when we went. It took forever to get medicaid straight. Then we went back March 1st and that is when we first seen the heartbeat and found out to our shock that we were 19 weeks and having a boy. We texted and called and updated as many as we could the moment we found out. As soon as we had something to share we shared it. There was only a handful of people who knew about the baby before the dr's appointment and that was because i was so terrified about having to tell everyone that we lost our baby...again...

Well now we are on the hunt of finding boy thing for our little man. Today i am 23 weeks and 4 days. Which leaves us with 15 weeks and 2 days til the baby is scheduled to arrive. I have hardly any of the little stuff. At Rhea Lana's I mainly focused on getting the big stuff like the car seat, and the stroller, and the swings, and high chair. I still don't have a closet thingy to hang up any of the clothes that we actually do have (which aint very many), diapers, diaper wipes, BOTTLES,bedding set, etc. I let myself get overwhelmed thinking about it. I am praying that we can get everything before he arrives.

My baby girl ZZ just turnned 2 yesterday. WOW time flies by so fast!!! it is crazy. Today she is moving into a toddler bed. MY BABY IS GROWING UP ON ME. Jr is gonna be 5 in May and NeNe is gonna be 4 in October. Jr starts school in August and i am having a hard time dealing with that too. Since I wont be released from the dr the hubby is gonna skype me in at his first day of school and take LOTS of pictures. LOL i am probably gonna be one of them crazy mommas i always made fun of HAHA and be crying when he starts school. wonder if i can blame it on just having a baby and my hormones are out of whack?? HAHA

Well we have missions conference and Easter to get ready for so off to go do that!!

Jenny Love

JibberJabber

Wow it is almost the end of January already :0 this month has been going by quickly. I am just thinking about the things ahead for this year...My little man turns 5 at the end of May. Where did the time go???? It is so crazy to me and hard to fathom that he will be starting school this august. But he will be and I think it will be really good for him too. Although it will be something to get used to that he will be gone during the day during the school week learning. But I am excited to get to hear about his day went at school and what he learned :) But i still have a few more months to get ready for his 1st day of school. I will probably be one of those crazy mommas that cry on his first day after he leaves haha. Oh well. NeNe turns 4 in October. And ZZ turns 2 in April. CRAZY how fast they grow up. God really has blessed me alot with these 3 kiddos. Is it always easy? of course not but God has blessed me. I wouldnt know what to do without my 3 babies.

I havent done so good with my healthier eating...I really should be ashamed because i havent even been trying. It's sad but true. But i am determined to start after girls night!.. I aint gotta be perfect at it but at least i can try. PRAY FOR ME PLEASE!

In the toddler Sunday School class we have been doing the days of creation...1 each week. The kids and I have been having a lot of fun with it. Next we will be doing the fruit of the spirit but we still have 4 more weeks left of creation.

My hubby and i still have an unspoken that we just cant share yet. Maybe soon. But in the meantime prayers are appreciated.

Well i am off to go spend some time with my hubby and the kiddos. I love when my hubby is off :) and i love my family so very much :) I really dont have a lot to blog about today haha.

New Year's Resolutions...

Wow...2012 already. I guess thats time to set some new years resolutions...please pray that i actually stick to them. I REALLY REALLY need to lose weight. i HATE the way i look. To do that requires eating healthy. I am going to focus on eating healthier right now...i also want to focus on being more positive which i think will actually help me in my healthy eating. i dont want to just say i am gonna eat healthy i want to actually do it. To go with them i want to become more faithful with my daily devotions and prayer life which again will help with me eating healthy and positivity. This is something that not only do i want to do but something i NEED to do. Everything started today but the healthy eating...the healthy eating will begin on the 2nd because of my hubbys food tradition he does on new years day. Please please pray for me cuz i really need them. I have something heavy on my heart and mind and i cant share just yet but i am a major worrier and I really just need to give it to God because He is the one who is in control. There are new blessings in store for me this year and I am ready to receive them. And ready to make me a better me. Mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally. God has and is so good to me.

Jenny Love

It's The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year...

This year we tweaked our Christmas tradition just a tad bit and its most likely gonna somewhat stick with my sister in law having got married and moving away. This year Christmas was on a Sunday. As if Sunday aint a busy enough day LOL. But we made it work and it actually went fairly smoothly. We used to host dinner christmas day but hubby and his daddy decided to switch it up since Amanda and Anthony got married and its easier for everyone to get together and spend christmas day together. They were at our house in time to celebrate Christmas Eve dinner so it was fine and dandy with us. Truth be told I actually like that we are doing Christmas Eve now instead of Christmas day with hubby's birthday being the day after Christmas. I get a day in between there LOL. Anyways, Hubby came home and cooked dinner after he got off work and the in-laws came over and we had our "stocking christmas." We chose Christmas Eve a few years ago after me and the hubby got married and moved out on our own to exchange stockings on Christmas Eve with his family. We loved our stuff. Nene LOVES her hippo haha. Her momo and papaw got her a stuffed pink hippo. Ever since she was really little she has been fascinated with hippos. I have no idea why. She got so excited. With her hippo she got a brush that her and her papaw picked out together at walmart. And she was brushing the hippos hair. Jr and nene got some stuff as well. Me and the hubby got some nice stuff as well.

Christmas Day. Instead of setting out the gifts the night before we told the kids that we would set out cookies for Santa and Chippey (elf on the shelf) that morning and that if they were really good at church that maybe Santa and chippey would bring their presents when they got home from church. Me and the hubby decided that it would be best to do it that way since Christmas was on Sunday morning and we felt that it is not fair to the kids to teach them that Christmas is about Jesus' birthday and not even show up for His Party and skip church. Jr was the best he has ever been at church. He was soooo good. The hubby cooked breakfast for us that morning just like we normally do on christmas morning and we ate together as a family. (we dont normally cook breakfast at breakfast time only on christmas morning and every once in awhile) Then off we went to church. There wasnt very many kids so me and my mother in law combined the kids and Ms. Donna taught the 2 toddlers. it actually went really well. After church we came home and SURPRISE chippey and Santa came to visit.

This year Jr is at that age he knows exactly what to do and nene too. Bird well she was a bit slow and kept wanting to play with the toys as they were opened so i helped her out. But Jr was so funny he ripped the paper off the presents so fast that paper was flying everywhere. He was SOOOO excited. Thankfully hubby has a camera that takes pictures fast HAHA or we might have missed getting pictures of him opening his gifts LOL. Nene was just as excited but she took her time and enjoyed opening the gifts...a happy medium between her brother and her sister. Nenes favorite toy from me and her daddy was her mini la la loopsie. She carries her around everywhere. I didnt even know that she knew what La La Loopsie was until we were in the toy aisle and she asked for a lala loopsie for her purse. she wanted the little one so she could take her places in her purse so we bought her a mini one. Jr's favorite toy is his drum set. He said he is just like Jon Sr (thats what he has been calling his daddy ever since jonathan taught him that his name is Jonathan Sr and Jr's name is Jonathan Jr so that he knew what his real name was and his daddys name. not bubba or just Jr.) His daddy has rock band and has a drum set that he likes to play so jr was so ecstatic about his drums. He loves them!!!. Birdie's favorite toy was Her purple baby and her purple baby stroller. She has become quite the little baby sitter. She loves to take care of her dollies. They had other toys and clothes as well those were their favorites from us.

Christmas with the In-Laws came. We went across the street and ate a late lunch/early dinner. It was yummy too. My mother in law and father in law cooked. We talked and we laughed and just really enjoyed ourselves. Anthony has blended in with the family already (he became a part of it in August) and we love him to be around. Especially my kids. They love their uncle tony! they ask about him and nana both alot when they are gone. We are glad to have added him to the mix :) he makes a great addition. Well we split up the gifts from everybody and put everybodys in a pile next to the respective persons. And we started with the youngest and went to the oldest. So birdie went first and nana had to help her or we would still be waiting for her to open all her gifts HAHA. She got several gifts but i would have to say her top favorites were the baby food and little baby stuff and her baby swing from her MoMo, Papaw, and T and when nana opened the giraffe from nana and uncle tony she got soooooo excited! she was jumping up and down with excitement. HA nana had to open the rest of her gifts while birdie played with her baby and her giraffe. They did so great with what they got her. They play with all their toys now but those i believe were her favorite gifts. Nenes turn!! Her and T had a blast opening her gifts. Nene (my little 3 year old) put her T (her uncle) to work haha. She put him in charge of organizing and holding her gifts as she opened them. It was hilarious to watch. Every time she opened a gift she would show it to T and have him hold it and put it with the rest of her opened packages. Her top favorite tho was her T bought her a little stuffed la la loopsie. She was soo excited and she was telling him about it. he had to convince her to open her next gifts lol. then she got to the mini tea lala loopsie that her papaw and momo got her and she also got a lalaloopsie bus. Im telling yall this child is addicted to la la loopsie all from a commercial. but they are cute little dolls. She informed me that she wants a lala loopsie birthday party...so im gonna be a busy momma making her decorations and hunting down decorations thankfully my mother in law and a friend gave me a couple places to look for. What my baby girl wants she gets HAHA. Shhe is old enough now to know what parties she wants. and she is opinionated too. She also likes her rainbow dress from nana and uncle tony. She is one of those girls who wrestle with the boys and plays sports and loves football but she is gonna look good while she does it HAHA. Such a cutie. Jr wow he was hilarious. At first he only wanted to open the "pretty presents the ones with cars wrapping paper." but uncle tony convinced him to open up the presents wrapped in other paper as well. I guess he thought there was a lot of presents cuz with a straight face he looked at uncle tony and said "good grief" and started opening the non pretty wrapped gifts LOL we laughed soooooo hard. i still laugh just thinking about it. He is so much like his daddy he can make me laugh even if im upset. i love him so much He got so excited over his little blue handcuffs. He loves them. He said he is a policeman LOL. they also got him a a spiderman basketball shirt that he loves. I have a feeling that im gonna be washing that shirt alot. His papaw is gonna think he never takes baths cuz he always puts that shirt on right after i wash it. haha. Of course he is like a little fish and he begs to take bubblebaths. So thats not a problem. they got him several other gifts. He started jumping up and down when he opened up his basketball goal and basketball from his momo and papaw. he LOVES basketball. After we got him home and me and his daddy were putting away and putting together all of their presents his daddy set up the basketball goal in jrs room. they ditched me for a few minutes. The next thing i know they both snuck off to his spiderman room and they were playing basketball together. As much as i hated to break up their fun i was NOT putting all those toys together and away by myself haha there was way too many. But i am so glad that that is something they can do on hubbys off day when the weather doesnt permit them to be able to go outside. Jr also liked his wrestlers from T. Like i said they got a ton of gifts but i just mentioned their tops. Nana, Uncle Tony, MoMo, Papaw, and T did really great on their christmas. They loved everything.

Christmas afternoon after we cleaned up after the kids' christmas and opened all their stuff so they could play with it me and the hubby opened up our gifts from each other and of course the silly tradition that we started our very first christmas of buying ourself a gift and we had to open it up and not tell the other what we bought ourself. (it all started with our first thanksgiving we went to poplar bluff and we did christmas at thanksgiving with my aunt and uncle and they gave us each a gift card and told us that we had to spend it on ourself and we promised that we would buy something for ourself. Because we had no money to buy christmas we went shopping. We bought something for our self and then used the rest of the money to by gifts for the other person. thats how the tradition started. its something that we do and we love it. its definately different but its ours.) I bought myself a pair of snuggie slippers :) Hubby bought me a zebra bedding set and i got the one i wanted too!!!!! its black with zebra trim i love it. I also got a new phone!!!! he bought me a pantech matrix. i am still getting used to it but i love it. I also got a silver and black zebra phone case to go with it. I got some eeyore jammies and eeyore house shoes. COMFY!!! i got me 600 baby pictures that i can add to a little at a time. I have been begging for my kids' baby pictures for 4 years HAHA ever since jr was a little baby. I got some pink speakers so that i can watch movies on the computer when he is playing the game :) I also got some faith Hill perfume, a watch that i can wear its rubber and has no metal in it at all (i am allergic to metal so i have never been able to wear a watch) I also got mario cart and its as much as i thought it would be!!!! Yes he spoiled me a lot!!! At the in-laws i got a pink swiffer mop!!! :) a zebra blush set, manicure set, scrunchies, brush set, tuppaware bowls, waffle maker, donut maker, popcorn popper, cheese grater, slicer thing, and a drainer thing, a razor & body wash gift set, and some cds :) . that was from T, Squish, and Poppa Smurf. Then from Amanda and Anthony i got a pretty picture that goes in my kitchen (i hung it up as soon as i got home LOVE IT) a wall decor plate hanging that went beautifully in my room, friends picture frame, a laundry sign for my door, a dallas cowboys bag :) :) , :) and i know that i am missing some things but i didnt sleep well at all and birdie is playing loudly in the background but i LOVED everything i got. everyone did such a great job. and they were thoughtful and got me what was me. It was a fabulous 2 days. I loved the fellowship and family time and the food and the gifts that i got. :)

HUBBYS 25th BIRTHDAY:
For hubbys 25th birthday i sent him on a clue hunt to find his family, pizza, and presents HAHAHA. He loves the ninja turtles a lot. I bought him the dvd set for him for his bday. we watched the first one tonight. We came up with clues that fit donatello, michalangelo, raphael, leonardo, and splinter and he had to go to each place that we set up around town to get his next clue until eventually he found us. 5 different clues. HAHA i wanted it to be memorable for him. And of course i couldnt just hand him the presents LOL. It was raining so we had to do our backup scavenger hunt instead of the ninja turtle one that i originally planned. but this one was more cost officiant and just as fun :). I am calling it a tie. LOL the guys completed their list first but there was a few kinks in there haha. But it was fun. that was the purpose of it not to see who was better. I had a blast. It was a great time. Then we came home and played mario cart and watched the first TMNT. Yes these last few days were great. now off to enjoy my stuff and spend time with my hubby he is off the next 4 days!!! YAY!!!! i love it when he is off. and i love spending time with my family. I also have some major cleaning up to do from this weekend. :) i hope everyone had a very merry christmas!!!

Jenny

I love Sr, Jr, NeNe, & ZZ Love

BLESSED :)

It's been awhile since I have blogged. The reason is cuz on my computer i have to go under a completely different internet then the one i normally use to sign in to my blog. which is also why i dont comment a lot on peoples blogs. I do want yall to know that i do read what you write. But on my hubbys computer i can go straight to my blog and sign in. Crazy. Hubby hasnt had the time to sit down and figure it all out for me yet cuz he has been working.

Well Christmas is coming up. Which means that the Children's Christmas Program at church is coming up soon so I have been busy stressing over it LOL. My mother in law is in charge of the over all program and she does a wonderful job. The teachers work hard to get their plays together and the kids get to shine. I think this is the first year that has really just stressed me out. so it must be a good one. Oh sure i have just the babies and toddlers but i want their play to be just as cute and good :) This years theme is Happy Birthday Jesus. I am so excited!!!!

To me Jesus is the reason for the Season. If Christ hadnt been born we wouldnt have CHRISTmas. But do we tend to let Him get overshadowed or pushed to the side for trivial not as important things? Say how much we spend on someone or how many gifts we give to our children. I know i stressed alot about getting all of my gifts for my family and I didnt think about Jesus being born as much while i was stressing. I was just thinking last night shame on me for doing that. Am I saying that we shouldnt do christmas gifts at all? no. Would i have bought anything different that i bought for christmas? no but i wouldve eliminated the stressing out and bad moods from the stressing out. So I am gonna try something...Everytime that I start to stress about something that concerns Christmas. I am gonna Pray and thank God for giving us His precious Son and giving us something to celebrate. Anyways that was just food for thought.

I am going to start selling Scentsy in January or February as soon as i get the money to get started. I need a way to help bring in some money for my family and stay at home for the most part with my kids too. This way I can. My sister in law is selling Avon because her and her hubby need the extra money as well. Here is her link if you could be a blessing to her :)

http://shop.avon.com/shop/product_list.aspx?level1_id=300&level2_id=341&pdept_id=667&cat_type=C

I have an unspoken that I am not willing to share at the moment but would much appreciate the prayers. I will share when the time is right but that time is just not right now. If you could pray for me I would greatly appreciate it.

I am so blessed. I really am. God has given me so much and keeps on giving to me. And yet II stray and run away from Him so much. I struggle in my devotions and Prayer life. And i didnt say not a word about it to anyone except my hubby that i would love to have a daily devotion book to help me get into the habit of doing my daily devotions. God heard my heart and He answered using a sweet lady in the Mom's Friendship Circle. Last night we Our Christmas Mom's Meeting and we gave our prayer partner a gift. One of the several things that I got from my Prayer Partner was a daily devotion book!!!!! i am soooo excited. plus i got 2 chicken soup for the soul books one for couples and one for familys. i LOVE those books but hardly am ever able to get one. I was sooooooo happy when i received my gift!!! Yes God is so good!

Well off to work on the Nursery Christmas Play

GOD BLESS YOU :)

Jenny Love

God Will Make This Trial A Blessing...

Well its been a few weeks since i have updated. So here it goes...

I ended up losing the baby and having a D&C and having me cervix stitched. I dont know why I had to have it stitched that is just what the dr told us. We do know for 100% that we lost the baby because I had B+ blood and the baby had B- which they said is uncommon and its usually the other way around where the mother had negative blood and the baby has positive. What made it even more unusual was the fact that jonathan has O+ blood so both parents having positive blood and the baby having negative is really rare and the chances of it happening again is rare. That is what we were told anyways.
I really am ok. I am much stronger than what people give me credit for. I am so ready to get back to working nursery again and serving God again. Sitting around doing nothing while everyone else is doing stuff drives me crazy! LOL it really just bothers me. If i say that my heart dont still hurt i would be lying but my 3 little munchkins are very therapeutic and they make me see what I have rather then focusing on what I dont have. There are those who say "take a break from nursery" or "give your heart time to heal" but what those dont understand is the longer i stay away the longer it will take my heart to heal. I cant run away from my 3 babies so I cant run away from serving God in an area that I love to serve in. Yes...I lost a baby and it hurts but God is going to make this trial a blessing just like He has in any other trial that He let me go through. I am putting my faith and trust in Him to do so. I love my nursery kids and i love my own kids and my family and running away from it wont do me any good at all. No i did not know about the baby but the thought of losing it hurts all the same as if i had known. But at the same time letting the hurt control me wont do any good for me. Proverbs 17:22 and Romans 8:28 helps get me past it and then looking at what God has given me sure helps. God mends broken hearts and I trust that He has a purpose of why i went through what I went through. God will see me through this as well. That is so comforting to me. So when I say I am ok I really am ok. And those moments I want to cry God will help me be ok then too. He cares and He loves me and He has blessed me with a wonderful family and friend. :)

Having said all that My brother in law has been having tests ran and he has a few more to still have done. Please continue to pray for Him. God is seeing us and his parents and Him through this trial as well. Thankfully we heard good results. Were they perfect and did they come back saying that nothing was wrong and everything was all hunky dory? no but He doesnt have cancer and He doesnt Have the heart condition where he will drop dead for playing basketball so in my opinion that is great news! I was so scared of those 2 comebacks but they ruled them out. I know that they were 2 very big possibilities. He does have asthma and high blood pressure and we dont much after that and he can resume all the normal teen activities and he doesnt have to be a bum anymore LOL i understand how he felt cuz i have had to be a bum the last 2 weeks and it just drives a person crazy LOL. We can be lazy when there is something to do but when we are told that we cant do something that is when we want to it the most LOL ironic i know LOL. God is sooooo good to us. He gives us just what we need. Totally praising God for His goodness and mercy!

You know it is crazy how we praise God when the going gets tough but when the going gets good then thats when we want to ditch Him. Its awful. I am praying that I dont do that to Him anymore. Sometimes I am not a very good friend to Him even though He never leaves me or treats me the way that I treat Him. And even though I ditch Him sometimes He is still there waiting to for me to come home and give me a big hug and hold me close to Him.

Well this saturday is my little red heads 3rd birthday. She has brought me such joy and happiness. 1 of my 3 little blessings. I love you so much Charity-Anne Love.

Well i hope that everyone is doing well! Off to spend some much needed time with my hubby. He is so good to me. He takes such good care of me and He is because He loves me and He wants to. Not because He has to. I love Him so much.

The Joke Is On Us

Ok warning this could get to be a tad graphic but this is MY blog and i will write what i want...

I have been really hurting and "sick" (not morning sickness either) for a week. but the last 3 days...saturday, sunday, and monday i was in extreme pain...i am pretty good at staying calm and and faking it til i make it...and sunday i definately did a good job at it lol. Anyways yesterday i was in soooooooooooooooooooo much pain lower back, pelvic area, stomach it was just about unbearable. and jonathan was working yesterday til 4 and then had to go get the tire fixed after that. and i was hurting really bad and he said he would stay home from class but i told him no i would be ok until he got home. i made it til 6 what was 3 more hours? I told him the best way i could describe the pain was like when i was in labor those last 2 weeks of nene and i was in just so much pain. i even counted the intense pain it was 30 seconds every 3 minutes. and he made the joke about well if its every 10 seconds call me and go to the hospital. (background...jr was playing basketball with stephen and his pants fell down and we all started laughing. he looked at us all with a stoned shocked face and said "this is not funny" lol) so i told my hubby in the words of jr "this is not funny" and we were laughing. and i was like im not pregnant besides i took a test 3 weeks ago and it said not pregnant. so we laughed and he gave me a pain pill and his mom and brother came and got the kids (which im so glad they werent home). I fell asleep in the recliner and about 8:30 pm (i coulda been hallucinating from the pain pill LOL) i swear i saw the ninja mouse (more about that later LOL) sitting on the foot rest of the recliner staring at me when i woke up. Well i had to go pee and as i was getting up lets just say stuff starting falling out...large handsized amounts...(i had been passing quarter size clots all day) but this was WAY worse. So i quickly gathered it up and texted squish to come over to my house now!! and she came a running (i know i freaked my daddy in law out but i tried to warn him to stay on the porch...he is just a stubborn man...bet he wishes he wasnt so stubborn now LOL) and seen what was in my hand a HUGE and i mean HUGE blood clot (but we wasnt sure what it was)(on a shirt actually). i go change clothes and off we go to the ER and my texting queen sis in law texted everyone and squish starting making phone calls and hubby rushed to the ER from class.

We sat in the room a few hours and im still passing huge clots and they are drawing blood and running tests...then about 10 or 11 they came in and said that i was between 6 and 10 weeks pregnant and had miscarried. i was like WHAT!!!!!????? no way. i was trying to prevent it and i was trying to lose weight and get ready for the wedding renewal. I was just in total shock. after they left i just started crying on my hubby blaming myself. and whatever. well about an hour and half later the ultra sound tech came in and said the dr wanted to do an ultra sound and just check to make sure everything was gone or if id have to stay and get cleaned out basically...and it confirmed i was definately pregnant but the tech said well it looks like you are gonna pass it but i cant say that officially the dr who is looking at it will come and tell you the results soon...so we waited about 30 minutes to an hour...well guess what im apparently 8 weeks pregnant and am on strict bed rest i lost too much blood (10 pounds worth) and im in danger of losing the baby but i have a 50/50 chance of not if i go home and do just absolutely nothing. so this is what i am doing. im having another baby! what!? so crazy and totally not planned. please pray that the baby makes it because we are done after this one. we cant do this anymore. i have always wanted 4 (wasnt planning on even trying for another year) and was told already that im going through early onset menopause. but they said that it wasnt anything i could have controlled...my blood is opposite of the babys. thankfully i have a universal doner hubby. they gave me 2 shots one for the blood and another for the pain and i was able to go home. but every pregnancy has been worse. and me and him just cant emotionally take it anymore...neither can the rest of the family both sides mine and his...but if this one makes it we are getting that spring thingy done...they shoot a spring that grows your tubes together and prevents you from getting pregnant permanently and its not reversible. i fought it last time cuz i wanted just one more baby if we could. but im not fighting it any more. my heart cant take this emotional stress any more. but anyways thanks for all the prayers and even though we were joking about it HAHA it turned around on us and now the joke is on us when the dr was like SURPRISE you are 8 weeks pregnant. Now its the fun task of getting medicaid (which ive been put on the urgent list maybe that will speed them up) and getting in to seeing dr. booker. wow. im still trying to take it all in and rest of course.

hubby just texted and said i have an appointment at 10 am friday! wow i guess urgent means something!

Update on ZZ

Thursday ZZ was officially released from the burn unit. This happened On Sunday night January 9, 2011 I had made Myself a glass of hot tea and was going to relax and let her and her brother and sister wind down and get ready for bed. Her sister wet her clothes and I sat my tea down out of their reach (I thought) and started changing her sister. Unknown to me she crawled over and grabbed the glass. Before I could get to her, she spilled the hot tea on herself and she got burned from the neckline to waist in the front And top of diaper area. Oh i felt so horrible. I just knew thgat she was gonna be scarred up and it was gonna be all my fault and she would have to live with it the rest of her life. But she doesnt! God is so good He has completely healed her! I am so grateful for all of the prayer that was sent out on her behalf! Thank you again from the bottom of mine and jonathans heart and other family!

Jenny

Congratulations to the new Mr. & Mrs. Anthony Master

Well the time has come and gone. My sister in law married her best friend Anthony Master on Saturday, August 6th at 3:30 pm. The wedding was absolutely beautiful. I was one of the bridesmaids in it. I felt priveleged. i really felt privileged when she asked specifically of a picture of just me and her! totally didnt expect that. I mean i expected to be in pictures but not one of just me and her. It really made me :).

We had some issues at the beginning...some of the help with food preparation ran late and the biggest thing was the hair dresser! she showed up REALLY late it was ridiculous how late she was. That was the 2nd time she was supposed to come through for us and it was the 2nd time she fell short so needless to say me and Squish are on the hunt for a new hair dresser. LOL But thats ok it all turned out great.

Oh and my mother in law got super fancy and even wore makeup! The first time i have seen her wear makeup in 5 years! she really should more often. She was beautiful...not that she aint without LOL she looked beautiful in a different way!

Well it was time to start and the ceremony was beautiful but before time for the bride to walk the brides daddy AKA my father in law broke down and had his moment. He cried He was happy for her but sad at the same time. It was sweet and emotional! And it was hard on him...i think he still needs a few more days to adjust LOL. But it was so sweet. I am glad that they have a father/daughter moment that they will always remember. I didnt have that with my dad being passed away when i was 3. So it really makes me smile knowing that they have that special moment to look back on.

I dont think it could have been any more of a perfect wedding for her. She got everything that she wanted and that is just wonderful! Im so happy for them!

Today they finished moving to their new home in McAlester, Oklahoma to help in a ministry at Cornerstone Baptist Church. I ish them well and love and happiness! I will miss her but hey life goes on! I gained a new brother in law and whats better than adding to the family? I love family!

So to end this blog post Congratulations Anthony & Amanda Master We are praying for you always and we love you! Enjoy this new life and love that you have and make new memories!





Janine Mullinax Photographer of Jag & Dyl's Photography took these and did an amazing job! thank you Janine!

They are all good but the last one is my favorite! so sweet and sentimental!